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teleute. i'm invincible, or so i'd like to think. i'm (supposedly) twenty, but i don't feel it yet.
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Pride and Prejudice
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more quizzes.
Friday, April 29, 2005

http://images.quizilla.com/H/hoplessromantic/1100936033_cturescute.jpg" border="0" alt="HOT">
You like the prince charming type.


http://quizilla.com/users/hoplessromantic/quizzes/What%20kind%20of%20guy%20are%20you%20most%20attracted%20to%3F%20(CUTE%20anime%20pics)/"> What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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okays fine mebbe i do. but, hey, THEY DONT EXIST ANYMORE now do they? hahas. des likes the sweet shy type!!! xD

http://images.quizilla.com/T/truly-dippy/1061401756_topdreams2.jpg" border="0" alt="Morpheus">
Morpheus


http://quizilla.com/users/truly-dippy/quizzes/%3F%3F%20Which%20Of%20The%20Greek%20Gods%20Are%20You%20%3F%3F/"> ?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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kaes..morpheus is cool. but i kinda thought i wld get either morpheus or hecate. hecate is seh. ahahas.

http://images.quizilla.com/T/theandrea/1034278675_ctionhands.jpg" border="0" alt="holding hands">
hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.


http://quizilla.com/users/theandrea/quizzes/What%20Sign%20of%20Affection%20Are%20You%3F/"> What Sign of Affection Are You?
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taken this quiz two million times and its still the same lols.

http://images.quizilla.com/C/CerebralSeductress/1093683232_Foldertifa.jpg" border="0" alt="You are Tifa...">
You are TIFA. Sweet, caring, and I bet you can make
a damn good B-52 shot...


http://quizilla.com/users/CerebralSeductress/quizzes/What%20Final%20Fantasy%20VII%20character%20are%20you%3F/"> What Final Fantasy VII character are you?
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and my results keep on changing. lols.

http://images.quizilla.com/B/bloodydepressed/1053481092_IDEOSshot1.jpg" border="0" alt="HASH(0x8bf0b8c)">
Gunshot to the head. You are impulsive and know
want you want. You do not want to be able to
take things back and this is the perfect thing
for you. You don't change your mind very often.
When you become fixed on something you achieve
it, better or worse. Instant death will prevent
anyone from helping you back into the world you
loathe so much.


http://quizilla.com/users/bloodydepressed/quizzes/What%20Form%20Of%20Suicide%20Are%20You%3F/"> What Form Of Suicide Are You?
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can u actually get a bloody gun in singapore? and i dont think i want to die like that. so messy. id rather do the ammonia/cyanide/pills way.

http://images.quizilla.com/A/animeotaku/1053136579_ngr-lonely.jpg" border="0" alt="Loney">
lonely


http://quizilla.com/users/animeotaku/quizzes/What%20is%20your%20reason%20for%20suicide%3F(with%20images)/"> What is your reason for suicide?(with images)
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i didnt say i wanted to commit suicide now did i. i want to die, but not by suicide....stoopid quiz.

http://images.quizilla.com/X/xcityrockerx/1061198036_pricheyarm.jpg" border="0" alt="Richey's arm">
Richey James Edwards, guitarist for the Manic
Street Preachers until 1995, when he
disappeared completely. This was effectively a
suicide, because besides the fact that suicide
was one of the leading theories about Richey's
disappearance, no one has now seen him for
close to 9 years. He had suffered problems with
anorexia, alcoholism and self-mutilation, and
was once hospitalised.


http://quizilla.com/users/xcityrockerx/quizzes/Which%20Rock%20'n'%20Roll%20Suicide%20Are%20You%3F/"> Which Rock 'n' Roll Suicide Are You?
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woot. scary sia. ahahas. not even my arm is that scary. xD never heard of this guy though. >.<

lala. got to go now. parents rolling back. byee.

quote of the day:-
i never thought i'd die alone, i laughed the loudest who'd have known?
-adam's song by blink 182.

i dont know.
Saturday, April 16, 2005

im crying a lot more nowadays. and i dont know why.

perhaps its cuz of my mom. but dammit, i dont cry. i never cry. okay, fine, maybe i do. but kaes, i never cried so much before. look, its like, everyday we fight, we argue, i cry. i have no idea whats her problem. fine u want me to mug. i mugged. and then she wants more. when i mug, the test must have results~ okay, makes sense. but sometimes when i mug, i dont get results, even though ive really tried my best. the geog test, when i found out my marks after that, i cried. i was sobbing on sy's shoulder. i hadnt done as well as i thought i would. and i felt so bad.

maybe im fated to be a failure. maybe i cant ever do it. why is it that the supposedly smartest pple get the worst parents? is it cuz we have more expectations to live up to? look, i know im not stupid. on the sci and math assesment i got almost every qn right. only less than 5 wrong for one whole chapter for maths. for sci, everything was right except for one qn which i phrased wrongly. and these are my worst subjects!

of course for chinese cannot say la. i got equally wrong for both. whatever.

but still. im still feeling inadequate. call it having low self esteem. i believe im suffering from many psychological defects, but my superb gift of being able to Hide My Emotions has hidden this fm my parents. many a time i wanna shout at them to tell them.

but not like they'll listen anyway. they think theyre always right.

what can i say. i just have to keep trying. but i do have expectations for myself. im not as goalless as they think i am.

i want to make it to IP. if i cant, i'll die.

no quote of the day, im sorry. bye.

MI week and its wednesday.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005

it is MI week. i am in the computer lab. crazy for this girl by evan and jaron blasts into my ears. gloria, js, kev and jos are on the comp to my left, playing some cute but lame online game. we are supposed to be doing our MI research, but believe me, most of the class has heck care the whole thing, even though it is due tomorrow.

love at first sight by kylie minogue is on now...

it makes me wonder, surrounded my my classmates, about my life. it is a strange thing to wonder about, when your suppsoe to be doing a project, but are, in fact, blogging.

woot. sam c has joined the weird online game gang. this is getting lame. truly. i would be pissed at the racket they are making, but im busy listening to music and blogging. the warcraft3 pple are starting a game of warcraft now. fun. i suppose.

purest of pain by son by four is on inside my head, currently. i guess that the fact that im updating abt my surroundings and my music shows in effect how bloody bored and sian i am.

mother has koped my hp. do not call. do not sms. do not waste your money on me. killed my bill. haiz. kor, it isnt your fault and i dont blame it on you. please dont feel bad, really. look, you may wonder why im not pissed. in effect, to put it bluntly, yes you were the cause of my bill. i sent lotsa msgs to ya ^^.

i had to pay 30bucks for my bill. true. but what u have given to me in return is your companionship. that by far exceeds my 30bucks bill. i would gladly pay 30bucks for my hp bill every month if only i could have your companionship again. for the last 2 nites, i have gone to sleep feeling detached from the world. i felt super lonely. at least with you there, i had someone to call/sms and i could feel that "hey, im not alone. theres someone here with me."

i dont know. perhaps i crave pple around me. i have thought of myself as a intrapersonal gal who loves music, and my recent MI test has certainly shown that. yet, though i admittedly like being alone at times, sometimes i just want someone to be there, to talk to. to put it frankly, i want my cake and eat it too.

hold on by good charlotte. what an apt song.

dont stop searching, its not over.

yepps. its not over. it never has been.

i think i had better go now. need to work on bloody project. au revoir.

quote of the day:-
you do not know the palette of the one you kill until the mind disgorges its finest colours.
-the vampire armand.

think on that quote now, wont ya? ^^

stuff
Wednesday, April 06, 2005

HASH(0x88c7ef4)
Your dark side is centered around Death. Anger
running through your veins, your soul is
confused between staying or leaving in this
pointless world. All you want is an open
creative mind to go with your lifestyle, no
conditions or judges, just loyalty to each
other, so you can finally live your perfect
exicting world you always wanted, life will
worth something. You will find what you want
when you believe in something more valuable
then death and when you appreciate your life.

What is the center of your dark core? (updated)
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part of its true. part isnt. im not that dark now am i?
nice pic tho. xD

HASH(0x8977470)
You connect with pain mentally, your mind analyizes
every thing around you, your brain never stops
even when you are sleeping, that is why you
usually have headaches, another problem you
have which is insomnia, you can't sleep easily,
you have to think at least one hour before you
sleep, you are responsible and creative, you
don't trust people easily that is why you like
to do every thing by yourself, the best cure
for you is to calm down and slow down things in
your life, you don't have to carry the whole
world on your shoulders.

How do you connect with Pain? (updated)
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whee.

HASH(0x9083084)
You are dead on the inside. There's nothing there
for you, feeling alone and like your not a part
of the living world you once knew or never
knew, the emptiness and numbness hurts to keep
inside, but through tears and sacrifice, you
still do.

What sort of 'gothic' person are you? (pics)
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blah.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Moderate

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

going to sleep now. good nites.

reality bites

Reality bites quote
Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. A lot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway?


What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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true, true. but im happy! i think.

Cynical
Life sucks and you know it. Nothing ever turns out
okay, nothing ever goes your way and while you
have to live this horrible life the gods are
laughing at you. The whole meaning with life,
according to you, is simply to die. But you
have not become this way just like that, you
have probably been decieved, betrayed and hurt
by people who meant alot to you in your past.
To you, life is not even bittersweet.

How do you see life? .::minor update::.
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cynically is spelt wrong. ahahas. whatever. I NEED HAPPY QUIZZES!!!

darn. all this is making me feel really negative. even more so. whatever.

MORE QUIZZES

Death
You are sad because of your life and obsession with
death

Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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whee.

more quizzes.

Wind element
Your element is Wind. You are the guy/girl that is
unpredictable. No one knows what you're going
to do next and what you're in the mood for.
Studying is not your thing and you would rather
go to a party than stay home. Life is just for
fun and you need to be free to live according
to you. You waste no time on lies, if you feel
or think one thing you say it even if it hurts.
Of course, people may be quite upset but that
doesn't really bother you. Its not that you
don't care, because you do, but in these
situations it's a waste of time. You live up in
the clouds and are quite a dreamer about life.
People often consider you beautiful, but harsh
and they would think twice before getting to
know you. But once they do, they'll learn that
you are always willing to take yourself and
your friends on adventures. Never will it be a
boring time with you and your friends
appreciate that. You are not often seen sad,
but you have your times. If someone has been
mean to you, you can quite easily trash-talk
them for betraying you. Nevertheless, you are
most of the time a good spirit who just want to
have some fun. Rate and message!

What is your element? [with pics + 7 outcomes + detailed answeres!]
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quite true i guess. ween was fire lols.

my soul is dead.

Dead soul
Your soul is dead.
You've probably been through one too many rough
times in your life which has eaten you up from
the inside. Now there's nothing more to eat
from since you just don't care anymore. Life is
meaningless and you live it like a zombie. The
good thing though is that you cant be hurt,
since you are so distant from the emotional
world. Love is something you dont understand or
just dont remember. If it was up to you, your
life would already be over, but it doesn't make
you suicidal. You are probably alone most of
the time, looking at the world with a blank
stare. The yearning to feel alive and be happy
has simply gone away. What's left now is only
the shell of what used to be you.

How is your soul?(pics)
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huh. whee. didnt believe it. did the quiz twice. same results. *shrugs* ah well. erm considering the fact i responded "pain" when the quiz asked what love meant to me. lols. and my last death wish was for my soul not to live on. ^^ the world sucks la. whatever.

should i find happier stuff to blog about...?

quote of the day:-
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart.
-someone. somewhere. im being vague rites? whatever.

SOCIETY'S LOUSY EXPECTATIONS
Monday, April 04, 2005

if i dont at least pass my HCL test, i will be so so crushed.

right. im sounding singaporean. yet, if you think abt it, i have the right to worry, since i may bloody FAIL the goddamn thing. if i dont at least pass it with more than what i got for the last test [which was kinda lousy] then i will so die. simply cuz i studied so much with the hopes of doing at least averagely.

its weird that even if you try your best for something, your best may not be good enough for your family, and yourself. and society. and the bloody government who is supposedly spending a million on each of us in the hope that we may amount to what they want us to amount to.

i tried my best for this test. but if it comes back with less than 30/50... i'll just cry my eyeballs out. which is weird....cuz once in p5 after i sobbed my eyes out for a test, i dried my eyes and told myself that ill never ever cry for a test again cuz it just aint worth it. kinda funny that im breaking that promise now? that is if i get less than 30...

when one tries their best, one can come out with two outcomes. good, or bad. you do well and everyone is happy. plus its a major confidence booster. if your best aint good enough, you are totally and utterly crushed. plus your self esteem takes a heavy blow too. my heart will just...shatter? if thats the right word. but i think it'll suffice to just say ill be really really disappointed in myself.

as in, really...

never mind. will report as and when necessary...

to huishi: if your reading this, try to organise a chalet for june? and invite my kor. as in michael. as in the michael that isnt your boyfriend. the OTHER michael. the michael who is terence's classmate. ah screw i think you know who la. =)

quote of the day:-
now take this razor and sign my wrist
now everyone knows who left me like this
-someone.

quizzes.
Friday, April 01, 2005

dreamer
You represent the dreams in life. You are laid back
and also dream a lot.

What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
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hahas. dreamer me. i guess so.

Nihilist Bear
Nihilist Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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this one is for ylynn lols. cant believe i took it. i must be insane... >.<

quote of the day:-
she hears the yelling, she cant stand the noise, she turns up the radio, by morning she has painted herself in red.
-someone.

hurts, doesnt it?

Info Grey
Your Heart is Grey

What Color is Your Heart?
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look on the bright side. at least my heart isnt black....