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You are the dreamer daydreaming and obsessing over
something you want very badly...maybe you'll have
it soon enough.


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its wednesday and im recuperating from the sleepless nites of YaYA camp. cheesy name...but heck, it was fun. FYI its a church camp. youth and young adults. hence...YaYA. chee.

started on thursday, ended on sunday. those few days were just wonderful and i enjoyed myself so so bad. it has opened my eyes to this whole new perspective on God and all. it was really good. the last sermon about forgiveness on saturfday nite really got to me. lots of pple were crying. it really made me think abt my life and stuff, and the forgiveness i wanna give to a few people. yes i have been struggling with forgiveness but its all A-Okay now...

okay lets start with thursday. we met at kranji mrt station and started amazing race. my tream was mel and xiong. so its two youths of 14 and 15 years old and one young adult. whose age i dunno. heh. anyways it was cool, outta abt six teams we came in 2nd. not bad for the ubnderdogs. yea, we were the underdogs. hehe. jean's group came in first. hey, for one they have more people. ^^ but it was real cool. ^^

that nite we had this murderer game thing. the committee gave us a case and evidence and you have to go around thinking of the murderer... guess what? i suay suay stepped on a thumbtack outside room 1. i was barefooted. ohhh baby. it was like lalalala..OW! tyf looks down and instinctively tries to pull thingy out. realizes that thingy is stuck to foot and it hurts like fuck if you try to get it out. tyf takes good look at thingy which she originally thought was a stone. [now whats a stone doing on the 2nd floor rooms anyways] tyf sees thumbtack. tyf starts going ohh shit... tyf has to lie down and nice guy medic ying ci gets thumbtack out. tyf gets her 10minutes of fame. it was half in by the way. ahahas. til now i still have a visible grey hole where the thing went in. whee.

okays. friday. nothing much, just generally went shopping in plaza singapura carrefour to get stuff to bring to pulau ubin. bought squall's necklace there at the comics connection. yay. go me. went to pulau ubin at round 7pm? stayed at jetty waiting for pple til abt 9pm. night games started, and damn the dogs there were scary. big and scary. whee. so generally we just had to roam around with torches and a map to get to different checkpoints. was kinda fun. my team were the first ones in. at close to 1am. abt 1245am or sth. by 2am, everyone was in. stoned at jetty somemore til abt 3am for resting and going to the nearby loo. trekked abt 20minutes to campsite. campsite: this frickin forest floor. we were stationed between like 4trees, laid down groundsheets and just lay down and slept. damn sick, but hey, no one really complained. everyone was too tired. woke up round 7am. trekked back to jetty. went to bus. everyone slept on bus. camp commander william was nice and gave us til lunchtime to sleep. reached church round 8am. everyone choings to bathe and brush teeth. [cmon. you're sweaty, oily and disgusting. believe me, everyone wanted to bathe] TYF CHOINGED AND GOT INTO BATHROOM FIRST YEAH GO TYF. ahahas. im so pro. tyf bathed and got out, brushed teeth, dried hair and went to sleep round 9am. slept til 1pm, got up for lunch, went back to sleep til round 4pm.

saturday at 4pm was water games. so fun!~ my fave was the balloon soccer thing. groundsheets, and two goals. five a side. the ball is a small water balloon. the groundsheets are soaked with water and slippery SOAP. you get down on your ass and start sliding around with the balloon and try to get it into opponent's goal. it was fricking fun, and im not kidding. after all that we bathed..AGAIN. for the 2nd time cuz all of us were soapy and wet and stuff. headed to sermon, which ive already mentioned above. worshiped til 12 midnight. hung out in room til 2am and went to sleep. on sunday, went to service at 9am, and the cg leaders decided we were too stoned to have lessons and thus we went out to have KFC lunch at plaza singapura. whee!~ then after that family headed somewhere to hang round, and went home at round 3pm. went straight to sleep, skipped tuition at 5pm, and lalala, the camp is well and truly over.

by the way, on monday ylynn and i went to watch mr and mrs smith. there is no storyline and no plot development but hell, it was good. fluffy and action-y at the same time. yepps. i recommend it. not for pple who like plot development and al that shit cuz hey, most action movies dont have plot development or storylines or whatever. like terminator. thats a good example. yepps.

kk. life's kinda good for now. btw, this morning i got news that i was shortlisted for njc. yeah baby. only have test and interview to go. thank you, God, and please continue to lead the way in my life. =)

i actually wrote this in my diary of sorts last nite. i dont keep diaries since i usually dont have enough commitment to actually write in them. but this diary is kinda like a late night thing. for the last 3 nites i have been sleeping in the early morning. i dunno why, but yah. sat nite, 4am. sun nite, 5am. last nite, 430am. yewouch. anyways, last night i was kinda thinking abt stuff and so i shall type my entry here...

i wonder why people say "falling in love" like it was an accident. its something like (in a realistic sense) oh, i was walking along the street and i didnt see where i was going and fell in love. it was 2hours before the crane came to try and get me out but it was a bit too late and i was all tangled up in love and had to go to the hospital. something like that.

but i suppose love really is like that. you just suddenly fall in it. in a personified sense, it is the situation named above, but if you look at it from an abstract sense, it kinda is like that. you dont see where you are going and fall in love. this "crane" comes to try and get you out of love but you're too tangled up in it and have to go to "hospital".

falling in love is an accident, honestly. i suppose one cant help but do so. but hey, perhaps if you kept a close eye for love, trying to trip you up, i suppose you wont fall in it.

like i am.

i want to leave dhs for all the wrong reasons...yet i want to stay for all the wrong reasons too.

ah. fuck. screw the system.

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

whee. shows how screwed i am. anyways. its my personal belief that every geper is a mild schizo. look at this, man.

What is Schizotypal Personality Disorder?

Quick Summary:

Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Symptoms of Schizotypal Personality Disorder:

• Odd or eccentric mannerisms or appearance
• Superstitious or preoccupied with paranormal phenomena
• Difficult to follow speech patterns
• Feelings of anxiety in social situations
• Suspiciousness and paranoia
• Odd beliefs or magical thinking
• Appears shy, aloof, or withdrawn to others

that sounds so much like a geper that its scary. i specially did the red hilights anyways. woot!~ damn. we rule. hell, my own mother thinks im weird. ahahas. kaes. poofing now. bye.