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teleute. i'm invincible, or so i'd like to think. i'm (supposedly) twenty, but i don't feel it yet.
if you can't take me at my worst,
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sigh
Sunday, April 30, 2006

nothing much to blog about so im just dropping by and writing a normal boring post.

okay fine there ARE fun things to blog about. but i wont blog them cuz theyre kinda..private. HAHA. and if i do, kaypohs like that samc will swoop in.

unfair! stupid samc never even tell me about that girl of his.

anyways, Junyi's getting hit on by some weirdzo dude from runescape. need i comment more?

and im stuck here. its tiring, to say the least. cant wait for ass week to be over, really. then i can play and party and canoe all darn day long. just TWO MORE WEEKS. TWO MORE WEEKS. then hooray time.

hold on. hold on.

hey romeo. =D

quizzy.
Thursday, April 27, 2006

got this off huishi's blog. she's born in may, but she very nicely posted the rest of the months onto her blog. i shall not cuz it looks so messy and plus im simply lazy. you wanna check your own month, go to her blog. its at the links, and scroll around a bit til you see it.

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. (i hope not the 2nd one. ^_^)
Ambitious and serious. (you gotta be kidding)
Loves to teach and be taught. (yeah right)
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. (heh. i think thats true.)
Likes to criticize. (or so my mother says)
Hardworking and productive. (HAHAHAHA! I LAUGH.)
Smart, neat and organized. (have you seen my room?)
Sensitive and has deep thoughts. (yeah i suppose this is right)
Knows how to make others happy. (i need feedback for this one ^_^)
Quiet unless excited or tensed. (quiet only around people i dont know)
Rather reserved. (heh. yeah right.)
Highly attentive. (except in math)
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. (YES. THIS IS SO ME.)
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. (^_^;;)
Loves children. (no i dont. the little shits. mom says i'll change my mind when i grow up though.)
Loyal. (yep. happily so.)
Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. (yes to the former, no to the latter)
Very stubborn and money cautious. (yes to the former, no to the latter)

out of 18, i got 8. this quiz sucks man.

gotta go do darn bio (cocaine!) and stupid IH (urban planning. wtf.)

later.

napfa over
Wednesday, April 26, 2006

napfa over, i got my gold with a timing of 12:55. which might not be that good, but im satisfied with it. eeks it was so sunny today. sun sun sun.

and then in the afternoon it rained. so i got wet walking home. yikes. then ZS walked me to the bus stop before turning back cuz of air rifle. des also has air rifle too haha. ME HUGS DES.

anyhow, dont really have anything much to look forward to. just living day by day. that sucks right? cuz im the kind of person that has to look forward to sth. all right, i shall look forward to the HOLIDAY on 1ST MAY. then after that, look forward to EDS NITE. then to the END OF ASS WEEK. then to FUNTASIA (eh. must come kaes!) and then finally to CAP. and then may is over, goodbye, thank you very much.

enter june, where everybody is happy and i can canoe 4 times a week. HAHA. then SDBA DB nats, then dumb OBS. all i can say is that they had better let me shower during obs or i'll kill them. i simply cannot go without a day of brushing teeth/washing face/showering.

other than the hygiene part, i think obs will be a breeze.

*brings a million and one various insecticides and sprays*

darn mosquitoes.

divine's i'm so beautiful simply cracks me up. imagine a huge fat blonde wigged woman dancing...and singing in a MAN's voice.

its reallllly funny!

i'm so beautiful
you gotta believe it i am beautiful
i'm so beautiful.
can't you see?
look at me!
i said i'm so beautiful.
well, everybody's welcome to this point of view.
we're all beautiful.
can't you see?

this is FREAKINGLY FUNNY.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA.

okay nvm.

thanks to ZS for bombarding me with lifehouse songs.

whee.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006


REMEMBER THIS PIC? thats chia, me, yw, samc.

well that lamer samc ran this through myheritage and here are the results. credit to SAMC please.

chia looks like jesse mccartney (for guys) and emily browning (for girls).

i look like ANDY LAU (for guys. hes shuai kaes! for an old dude.) and tata young (for girls. thats better.)

yw looks like leon lai. -__-

samc looks like a SIKH. amitabh bachchan! AHAHAA.

he then ran pics of des and daryl through, that lamer samc.

*get ready for it!*

des looks like JAY CHOU (guys) and AYUMI HAMASAKI.

daryl looks like BOB DYLAN, MAI KURAKI and (samc! brudda!) ABHISHEK BACHCHAN.

oh my, the laughs we had.

talking with ZS and SAMC. how entertaining.

LIFEHOUSE SONGS GALORE~

napfa

TODAY I HAD MY 5 ITEMS. 2.4 tomorrow. gah.

update:
-33 inclined pullups in 30 secs (A)
-43 situps in 30 secs (A)
-11.2 secs for shuttle run (A)
-169cm for SBJ (C)
-42cm for sit and reach (C)

and my running confirmed A cuz the girls' A is super easy to get. just below 14:33 can already. simple sia.

YES MY FIRST GOLD FOR NAPFA. I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED.

my thanks to mat, ZS, sam tung, gill for helping me with my SBJ. since that was the station i had to retake since my feet kept slipping. they gave me quite a few tips. xD

but yes! i come home satisfied. knowing that even though i havent been training that often, my strength is still THERE.

must be all that pumping before i sleep. xD

yeah baby.

math sucks
Monday, April 24, 2006

math sucks. it completely absolutely sucks. if i had a choice, id dump it. numbers are so not my thing.

anyways i suppose its been long enough since i last blogged. and its raining outside. the rain smells really nice, like wet grass with a twitch of chlorine. gives the earth a really fresh kind of smell.

nothing much went on today. just the usual, stupid SL completely ruining my day. his stupid subject sucks la. if i had to have math, id have JL all week long. at least he makes some sense. but JL is leaving to go to some other country to pick up scholars for next year's IP batch. SO FOR THE NEXT WEEK OR SO, ALL OUR MATH MODULES WILL BE UNDER SL.

WTFWTFWTFWTF.

please la. when JL went off for reservist, we were under SL, and trust me, all JL's work on surds went down the drain. i understood perfectly when he explained it, but once SL came along, zomg. poof. goodbye life.

fine i shall not bitch. theres a newspaper article saying that you should not bitch about your teachers or school on your blog. so i shall be good. so as not to be sued or something.

okays. i still cant frickin train. i wanna train. i wanna train.

napfa tomorrow. i hope to get below 13mins for 2.4. this considering the factor of SUN and the factor of the damn TRACK. i must also jump and shuttle run well.

GAAAAAH. CAN I DO NOTHING RIGHT IN MY LIFE.

*eats sofa, chokes and dies*

and estella told ZS some random rubbish which i wont mention here cuz its RANDOM RUBBISH. you tell half truths, estel! dont assume things! stupid freakin ducky.

Junyi...i want june to come soon, so i can train every damn day a week, hang out with friends and SLEEPOVER AT YOUR HOUSE xD

current wants:-
-to train.
-to pass every damn subject during ass week. which includes MATH and HCL.
-the phone number of that cute shuai ge on the 157 bus today.

okay fine the last one i was kidding. still.

HAHAHAHAHAAAA.

californication
Friday, April 21, 2006

heya peeps. havent blogged in a while. and why?

CUZ IM BLOODY GROUNDED.

and why?

cuz mom thinks me is not studying, and me is thus flunking. and thus me cannot canoe, me cannot go out, me has to study.

but at least me can watch telly and go to the comp as long as its for school work. which explains my recent disappearance from msn. heh. oh well.

I HAVE TO PASS ALL SUBJECTS INCLUDING MATH AND HCL TO GO BAAAACK. LIKE WTF.

tiff is not doing well in HCL. its pure luck, man. seriously. tiff is DYING in math too. its only cuz of minh ("you have to love math~" says he) the man that im doing better now. hope its enough to pass though.

IP KILLS. IP KILLS. IP KILLS.

anyways, on to better news.

I GOT INTO CAP.
I GOT INTO CAP.
I GOT INTO CAP.
I CANNOT FRICKIN BELIEVE I GOT INTO CAAAAAAAP.

i am super happy. this lifts my sour mood of not being able to train. found that also that jass got in. JASMINE TAN SING YEEEEEE.

and reuben liang. xD

SEE, JUNYI? WHY DID YOU NOT APPLYYYY.

ok fine its cuz you didnt know and by time you did, the portfolio was due like the next day. I BLAME STOOPID VEE JAY SEE FOR NOT TELLING YOU. my poor poor bestie. gah we could have been partying in the NUS hostels together man. now its gotta just be jass, reub and i.

like wtf. just aint the same, man. oh well.


oh well. sucks. here's a auron/lulu (aululu) wallpaper to cheer you up, dearest Junyi. simply cuz im sure youre sad that you didnt apply in timeeee. ive become FFX addicted again, after i cited an example from FFX for my MI essay on WHY IS THE TRUTH IS IMPORTANT. (said sth about tidus's dream world Zanarkand and how he was LIED to and how his life changed et cetera) and plus, this wallpaper is nice. hahah.

the aululu wallpaper is for Junyi. and this seifer/quistis (seiftis!) pic is to cheer myself up (since my dearest darlingest Junyi wont be there at CAP, gah.) this is a banner for Fire and Ice, a seiftis fic by the great ALTOL. which rocks. anyone who is a seiftis fan should go read it. i am not even kidding. gah rocks.

APPLY IN J1 KAES, JUNYI! WILL TRY FOR COUNCILLORSHIP WITH ELE DEAR AND HOPEFULLY I CAN SEE YA THEN.

anyways, im being a good tiff and mugging. and erm. yes. COME FOR NJC IP PREVIEW TOMORROW. assuming some sec2 stumbles across my blog or something. hahah.

and yes, for stoopid council elections, ive already voted. so stop bothering me, stoopid council wannabes. ive been good and voted kaes! xD

yeah see you lot later. will prolly be a while before i can blog again.

dream of californication.


food glorious food
Monday, April 17, 2006

food glorious food~

hooray oliver twist. =) just ate 2 cheese and 1 plain pratas today. thats a total of THREE pratas, mind you. and that is a lot. ^_^

plus, the added good news that i wont be in a boat with gero pok next year. instead ALL OF US ARE PUSHED UP TO DO K1. needless to say, i hope like HELL i dont do k1 1000m, cuz thats really scary. the distance already seems like forever in a k2, let alone a k1. thankews.

YAY. sweet silence from behind when i row. although no more gero pok to balance my fat arse, but at least there shall be SILENCE.

sweet blessed silence~

no nagging~

damn, im beginning to like this. xD AHAHAAAA.

played GTA vice city with samarth in the library today on his laptop. xD

by the way! news bulletin! A CROW DIED IN OUR CLASS TODAY MORNING! and how did it happen?

OH IT WAS CHOPPED TO DEATH BY OUR FAN.

happy bloodstains on tables, chairs, our wall, the floor and amanda's file. since it was that particular fan above her table hahah.

let me tell you the full story. in the morning, people walked into class to see *gasp* a poor (indeed, considering its fate) black (well, duh) fat (im not surprised) crow STUCK in our window grill. amanda, being the kind soul she is, decides to set the poor thing free.

(and gets blood on her file for it. hahah.)

so she approaches the bird with our class broom, fully intending to push the window open and set the poor crow free. but the crow, mistaking her intentions, fluttered even more vigorously and WHOOSH! managed to break free of our window grill. and being quite scared as it was...(imagine a human advancing on you with a broom. im sure it thought it was gonna be barbecued on a spit or something)

it fully tried to fly away, but instead flew straight into our fan.

chopchop! bird sliced in half. blood splatters. byebye bird.

yes thats the whole story. jonathan later picked it up with a newspaper and dumped it in the bin. which was later disinfected and cleared. so for the whole day, we didnt have ANY lessons in the class except for one period of CHEM and one period of MATH. and the back row was fully vacated during those periods, mind you.

R.I.P crow. the stains on the table, chairs, floor and file may be gone, but i think the one on the wall is gonna remain there for a while. whee. youll be remembered!

tomorrow trng. i want to row my sexy k1. whee. xD later then.

hold me
whatever lies beyond this morning
is a little later on
regardless of warnings
the future doesnt scare me at all
nothing's like before.
-simple and clean, by utada hikaru
kingdom hearts theme song

the jap version of simple and clean (called HIKARI) is quite nice too. but i cant remember the lyrics all that well though. hahah.

nats REALLY OFFICIALLY OVER.
Sunday, April 16, 2006

it has hit me that nats is really officially over. and the first word that came to my mind today is...

BIIIIIIIIIIINGE!!!!!!

stuffed in laksa, cakes, chocolate, slurpees, sweets, SUGAR, twisties, can drinks (non carbonated though. i just cant bring myself to drink carbonated crap anymore.) and other random things which i usually dont eat. Yum.

i havent eaten twisties in AGES. next stop is doritos. must grab a bag from NTUC. and Lays.

and hokkien mee. xD

*remembers the beauty pageant rubbish we did in ale' pool and jo's exclamation, "I LOVE HOKKIEN MEE!" or sth like that.*

hahaa. forgive me, Canoeing God, for i have sinned. =) but gladly so, do note that. yum, i completely forgot what i was missing out on when i went on my Yong Tau Foo pilgrimage in JANUARY.

hahaa. this is fun. the freedom to eat!

monday i hit the prata stall.

grey's anatomy
Saturday, April 15, 2006

--the truth is that, i have always wanted what i have never had.

Junyi knows what im talking about.

darn, im fickle. much like a cat, that way. i can never decide between chocolate or vanilla ice cream. in the recent years, ive decided i like both. heh x)

grey's anatomy is throwing my emotions out of whack. lots of twists and turns and i cant help but scream GET ON WITH IT ALREADY. in my opinion, Derek can go screw a goat, Meredith should go find another guy, Cristina and Burke should get it on already and Izzie should dump Alex.

hooray for Dr Bailey, my fave character! closely followed by Cristina, heh.

but seriously, GAH! its frustrating seeing Meredith and Derek playing their weird little game of yes-or-no. never liked girls despo-ing for guys. he lied to you, and althoug he supposedly loves you and you do love him, he is still going back to his WIFE. like wtf.

but i digress. from the topic that i am as fickle as a cat and no one but Junyi knows about it.

by the way, im still contemplating whether or not to send a shoutout to you now or not. especially with the whole Cat thing and the whole you-not-smsing-for-the-last-two-days-without-a-valid-reason-or-response thing. so i shall not. since im such a hardass.

and im trying to epitomise what Meredith should be doing, dammit.

nats REALLY over.
Thursday, April 13, 2006

nats is over and we didnt do what we set out to. instead we lost the title and got 2nd.

however, there is only one thing im gonna say la.

TMS has better watch out, cuz although we let them have the title this year, rest assured it wont happen again. next year, we're gonna trash them. we're gonna train til we do, train til we bleed.

went out for team lunch at han's after a couple of really touching speeches that really hit us. then headed to ale's house to chill. and her house is really huge. its scary. haha~

i have come to the conclusion that i really love the team and i will really push for them. heart and soul! =)

although we might field a weakened team next year, what with the ip3s confirmed leaving b div and the ip2s possibly not being able to take part, but we will overcome the odds and even if its just the four of us ip1s with a couple of juniors, we will still put up a fight and take that title back.

its all about desire, and passion, and fighting spirit.

its really all about how much you want it.

nats over.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006

mom: eh go eat pear!
*dad serves up pear. which is super small*
me: EH MOM WHY PEAR SO SMALL.
mom: yah i know! so cute right! i purposely buy small one!

haha, now i know where i get my spasticness from. genetics, i tell you.

well. i flopped at nats, kinda. didnt beat that one boat. just one boat length!!

but guess what? ive done my best and i have no regrets. (haha, william hung!) and i think that thats the most important thing. i rowed with heart and soul and desire and passion and fighting spirit and that is all.

jiayou njc! we can still win the title!

and kevin and samc should stop being so kaypoh about my...boyfriend?

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA.

tell me about your girl first, kev.

LOL.

back to school again. sucks. oh well.

nationals
Monday, April 10, 2006

to fob off general questions, danga bay was fine. the team got 2 silvers and a bronze and i photowhored my life away. end of story. xD

now to the important issue. nationals are tomorrow. and i am confident of making it to the finals.

simply because if i did not, that would mean that all my trainings from 24th october 2005 to now would be wasted. and yes i actually remember the date i started with njc.

just one boat. all we have to do is beat one boat. and we're in finals. k2 1000m. lets rock baby.

actually to be honest, i was feeling scared. i really was. but after that wonderful speech by brigitte before danga games, all that stuff said by mr yong and debbie and et cetera during the 2nd day of danga games, and all the stuff said today after training really made me lose my fear and instead become confident.

i am prepared. i have never been so prepared for anything in my life. when i row to the starting line, i will have no fear, for i know that people are with me, supporting me every stroke of the way. not just gero, the team or the seniors, but also people like Junyi and mishra. who have always been there for me.

its just k2 1000m. its just 5 minutes of pain. ive trained all these months for these 5 minutes. i will whack til my arms drop off. i will not lose power, i will not rock or tilt. every stroke i will think about the team and all the trainings and achievements i have been through.

the desire, the passion, the pure WANTING will get me through that 1km.

"dont be afraid or worried or nervous about your race tomorrow. dont be a coward. dont ever race with fear! respect the race, but dont be afraid of it. challenge yourself to beat it, to train to the best of your ability. train the way you race, race the way you train. dont race with the wrong purpose or attitude!" -general summary of what mr yong said during debrief today.

"for anybody to beat us, they must BLEED to do it. whack hard, and give your best!" -huiming

"you are racing against yourself. overcome the pain! go to the start line with confidence and think about what you have done instead of what you have not done. stay focussed, do your best. dont judge yourself based on your opponents." -sean

OR! you could do it my brother's way. he just walked in and picked up my little notebook and read it.

bro *reads*: "pain is your friend". NO ITS NOT.
me: they mean youre just supposed to not give up even when theres pain la.
bro: dunno la, im a very realistic person. i cant psycho myself like that.
me: eh okay. whatever.
bro: all i know is that THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO NEED TO BE KILLED. JUST GO KILL THEM!
me: ...right.

i like my brother. hahah.

lets go for tomorrow! im sure we can do it. have the faith, the hope, the heart and the soul! see you lot at finals at least!

quiz!
Thursday, April 06, 2006

got this quiz off alan who got it off junyi who got it off ele who got it off someone else.

five things you are:
-ex-baller
-nj canoeist
-ex-slacker (until i came to nj and became mugger toad)
-ACCORDING TO YOU, hot. which i dont believe for one second, but hey, i can dream.
-GEPer. always and forever til the day i die.

five of your favourite (owned) things:
-wallet. its damn sexy.
-PHONE. simply because.
-mp3 player. i would die without it.
-my ps2! zomg!
-and you too. cuz that was your answer for this exact blank. xD

five of your favourite (unmet) people:
-DOUG PICKETT <3 <3 <3 have had an amazing eyecandy crush on him since p6.
-Angelina Jolie (sorry jennifer aniston, im a jolie fan!)
-my vincent valentine. whom i more or less share with junyi. still.
-HOTOHORI. the hawt dude from FY.
-criss angel. he is amazing. ^_^

five of your bestest proudest achievements:
-getting 1st for women's tertiary and 2nd for women's open for dragonboating in mr500.
-getting into GEP. nothing can top that.
-improving consistently in my k2 with gero pok.
-being able to say "i love you" to so many people (mainly my friends) and actually MEAN IT. cuz ive so much love in me that i just have to share it. =) im a loving person kaes.
-belonging to YOU. (hee, i stole your answer again!)

five of your favourite songs:
-Ding Dong Song (You Touch My Tralala) by Gunther
-Stumbleine by the Smashing Pumpkins
-1000 no Kotoba from FFX-2
-Eternity from FFX-2
-Where Are You by Natalie and Justin Roman. (for...obvious reasons?)

hahah what a ripoff lol. xD

danga tomorrow

danga games tomorrow, im rooming with constance. coolio hahah.

like gah im gonna miss everyone. especially you. and Junyi, of course haha. cuz its like i sms you everyday? or something. unless my bill dies. and now i cant. sucks, dont it. hahah.

danga games danga games danga games! my heart gets so excited when i think about it, i just cant wait. its like. whee. hahah i know its not for enjoyment, but i plan to whack during the races and PARTAY at nite in the room. assuming constance doesnt kill me for it hahah.

i want to watch telly. hee. and eat. and bring a camera and take happy pics of everything.

the facade of the hotel that were going. so seh. heh. its very cool. they even give you a nice welcome basket of FOOD GLORIOUS FOOD. yum! i hope its good and healthy or ill have to sneak some while constance is off somewhere hahah.
a deluxe room. ours is different, its two perroom. so its twin bed. but this is king sized bed so its different. stoopid website doesnt give us a pic of twin beds.
a picture of Junyi when we were sec 1. put it in for verisimilitude hahah. looking good, babeh. AHAHAA im so gay. middle fingers, baby.
hotel lobby! looks fancy, ne. i wanna go swimming but i dont think we'll get the chance to. mr yong's rules state we cant roam or loiter about the hotel. charmaine and xinpei were saying something about swimming in the bathtub with a straw. funny hahah.

plus we are representing s'pore. thats a really big thing, since we cant humiliate ourselves. but then again, s'pore's canoeing sucks so bad (COMPARED TO OTHER COUNTRIES. im not being a traitor.) that it wont matter anyway. lol~ but its not just s'pore. its njc as well. we gotta show all those angmoh-kias that we're no pushovers. just like at mr500 when we trashed the angmoh-kias. who were like twice our age. and really big. and when i say BIG, i mean BIG. but our mixed boat still beat them. which was surprising. so did our tertiary women and women's open boats.

looks like heart and soul does work! wowie!

will miss everyone. you, try not to miss me so bad HAHAH.

LOL! brigitte posted the sleeping arrangements on KM, and thats when i found out that i was with constance. THE NOTE AT THE END IS SO FUNNY!

rationale: ensure the b div take good care of themselves during this critical period, and that all of them can wake up on time in the morning! give them advice on their upcoming races, prepare them mentally. can meditate. some partners are sleeping in the same room so they can discuss their race strategies. build up on the chemistry =)

ZOMG I FIND THAT SO FUNNY. lol, didnt know brigitte is so perceptive. im the kind of person whose alarm clock will ring and then ill hit the snooze button immediately. constance will have her work cut out for her. ahahaa!

possible scenarios.
constance: come on tiffany, get up!
me: 5 more minutes...

later on...
constance: come on, 5 mins already!
me: use bathroom first la. ill get up later...

later on, after she has showered, brushed teeth, changed and is generally ready to rock.
constance: get uppppp.
me: ZZZZ.

hahah, my parents know me well. whenever i travel with them they always wake me up super late. when i wake they will be changed and ready while i slog around. hahah my parents rock. xD

remember not to miss me too bad!
...though its inevitable. HAHAH.

reaching inside of me
bringing the love i need
the loneliness has gone.

-Tender by Feeder

hahah.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006

im quite exhausted with all the shit thats been going on of late. me dying in math, my results and my imminent canoe finals. which im gonna flop in. because i dont think im good enough cuz of not enough training. if only nats were in july.

heart and soul can only take you so far. it cant carry you 1000m when you die out with 400m to go. i really kinda feel a bit disillusioned. the seniors expect so much. but we are just gonna let them down.

im going to let them down.

sucks, dont it.

oh well. life's unfair. deal with it.

and i just wanna row with YOU again at 2007 nats. lets make it a good one. hope mr yong wont put us into k1s or with juniors. cuz i still want my sexy yellow-white k2.

danga games this weekend. lets just enjoy it while it lasts. nats will be over soon. and all the pain and continuous agony will end.

it gets routine after a while. and im completely zonked with all that stuff.

Boredom's in the back room, shaking out the loose teeth
Sally's in the stirrups, claiming her own destiny
and nobody nowhere understands anything; about me and all my dreams

lost at sea.

-'Stumbleine' by The Smashing Pumpkins, Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness

zomg
Monday, April 03, 2006

my nose has hereby started peeling a teensy bit. i shall up the frequency of times i put moisturiser from before i go to sleep to both after my shower and before i sleep. if that dont work, im gonna put it before i go to school too. but thats only for drastic measures hahah.

today in school, we were all charred and red.
steven lee: oh my goodness, tiffany, what happened to your face?!

thank you, sir.

anyways im now sitting next to minh the smart person. woot. i bet ms selva put him there for me specially cuz im such a loser at math. ahahaa.

anyways...

sharon. i hope youre okay. we all do. get well soon, dont stay in the hospital too long. they have a funny smell of sorts.

you deserve more than this. stay strong! we love you!

training tmr. danga games this weekend. woot, baby. and yes, damn straight you'll miss me. i will too. hahah. thats the mushy sentence of the day. lol. nites everyone.

national junior kayaking
Sunday, April 02, 2006

national junior kayaking. it was...alright, to say the least. our position in both 500m and 1000m sucked, but our 500m timing improved! to 2:32. which is still not ideal for a k2 tiger, but its good for a k2 tiger nooby junior pairing.

our k2 tiger in the right hands can get down to like 2:20ish. if we master the k2 apache, we can get down to 2mins. hoho. i wanna row apache! but its usually the guys that get that opportunity. and im prolly not good enough yet anyways. will cap til the cows come home hahaa.

and magically I CAN DO K1. i can put in power, twist, kick, even sprint! only thing that reminds me of my previous status as a k1 flunker is that now and then i will tilt. and i cant go as fast as the pro kia NAT.

but i didnt cap. muahahaa.

must not show prowess at k1 to too many people. mr yong might get hold of it and GASP! put me in k1 for bdiv nats next year!!!

then i might not be able to partner my gero pok in our sexy yellow and white k2 tiger.

hahah.

but really, im quite surprised that suddenly im transformed from k1 capper to k1 relatively-pro kia. i think its cuz being stuck with gero pok in a k2 for so long, you naturally get a sense of balance. cuz gero pok is not as stable as say nat or debbie or lina et cetera. but of course cuz im used to gero pok, i think she is one of the most stable people on earth.

I LOVE YOU GERO POK!

and plus the j2s taught us how to twist on that funky blue block. just follow that stroke in a k1 and you will be doing the right stroke and thus you wont cap. tada!

technically, a k1 just feels like me rowing a k2 with no gero pok in it. slightly floaty-ish but still stable. I DIDNT CAP TODAY MUAHAHA.

i love my yellow k1. hahaa.

gero pok and i shall continue to improve! hooray!

(i want 2:30 by nats period, gero pok. even though we're doing k2 1000m but our k2 500m sets must be at least 2:30! im sure we can do it! its just 2 secs less! muahaa!)

haha i told gero pok i wanted at least 2:40 today then we got 2:32! coolio.

am burnt. yowza.

and lots of people said our start for k2 500m was good. haha, am flattered. especially since we uncharacteristically flubbed the first 2 strokes. but other than that we managed to catch up. like o.O

i itch cuz of sunburn. i refuse to scratch. or i will PEEL. eeks.

gah got stuff to do. gotta run haha. later.