back from korea. have been for about a week or more. only that i havent really bothered to blog due to laziness and tiredness. bwah. well it was cool, dead cold, but the company was good. (: and the theme parks were way leeter than they were when i first went to korea three years ago. prolly cuz im older and dare to take the rides. ahaha.

for instance, in Everland, i sat on the suspended rollercoaster (the last carriage. and screamed my head off.), the very large viking ship and the inverter ride. (sat on the inverter TWICE in a row, it was so damn fun that i couldnt resist, ahaha.) the ride lasted about two minutes, and during the last part, they spun us four times in a row. apparently when you go upside down, all you see are your feet, the sky and a lot of colour below.

and in Lotte World, i remember the last time i went there all i did was sit the super tame rides (hot air balloon, anyone?) and the most interesting ride i took was the viking. and i sat in the MIDDLE. im such a noob. but THIS TIME, yours truly went on most of the exciting ones, sat on the end of the viking (which went vertical, dead fun) and even went on the famous Gyro Drop, which lifts you up 70m into the sky (the way up was friggin scary, we kept going higher and higher >.<) and drops you at 100km/hr. walao eh. and uhh we even took the Wakiki Wave, which was listed in the program as an exciting ride, and it was so tame. we thought it would be like the inverter in Everland, only without going upside down, and uhh. its just like being in a giant cradle and your mother rocking you to sleep. i thought i was gonna nap in there seriously. and uhh. we didnt understand why the korean girls were screaming their head off.

ahaha must be too many exciting rides already, cant even get riled up over this one. but the food in Lotte World was cool, especially the cheese dog. yum yum.

and plsu we had a shuai photographer. whom i thought was totally young and available. BUT then on the last day i found out that he was 26, married and with a young 100 day old daughter. DAMN. ahaha. no matter i got my pic with him anyways. again pics will be posted at a later date.

and well. the food was good. full of kimchi though. and uhh theres a lot of meat, cabbage and chilli. hot. i loved the meals there. and the meals were dead hot, prolly cuz of the cold weather so we had steamboat almost every damn day. xD

and apparently korea has a ton of Dunkin' Donuts. theres one at every major place. from the airport to various shopping districts. i ate a ton of donuts when i was over there, and i wish DD would come to s'pore cuz it would prolly get tons of business cuz hey who doesnt like coffee and donuts? xD

and uhh the shopping is bloody awesome. in four hours of shopping (bloody stingy tour guide), i bought TWO tops, TWO shorts, THREE caps, ONE hoodie and ONE skirt. for myself. my parents bought tons of crap for the relatives and etc, so its amazing how we managed to buy all that crap in four hours. such is the power of singaporeans shopping. whoohoo.

the company was good too, met a bunch of kids who were more or less around our age. amongst the six of us (so many kids yea), our ages ranged from 4 to 16. three guys and three girls. ahaha. i shall post up pics when i get them off my dad's laptop.

and well. since ive been back, ive gotten new specs, new contacts, new haircut. the dude cut my hair into this jap punk-esque thing, so its kinda cute and punky if you look closely. trainings have been okay, i died when i got back (but not too badly) and im glad to say that i can feel myself improving with every trng i go to. every time im getting better and better and i plan to be the best i can be always. (:

sunday was cool, modelled my new clothes, gave andy his present, got a compliment and flirted quite a bit with someone. bwahah. it was nice to say the least. and after that i got my haircut. which was major cool yeaa. and uhh apparently this monday (its wed now) is when all the air rifle people and other people who missed the OBS in June that the rest of the level went for due to random reasons like nationals or whatever are finally going to their own OBS!

only for them its gonna be damn sian cuz well, imagine going to OBS with just that small group. i magine the company must stink. ahaha. so des darling, andy and etc, have fun and come back soon! (: whee.

will post up the coolio tour pics asap yea. (: and i have been wasting my life watching d/hr videos and reading d/hr fics. so sue me. x) seeya lot later.

okay. i simply simply must mention a song which ive heard over the past few days: Lips of an Angel by Hinder. okay i agree its a sweet song, and yeah he sings it with such soul and etc. but well. i cant really agree with the moral implications of the song.

i mean, its about this guy who gets called by a girl in the middle of the night (i presume shes his ex, because he calls her "Honey" and says "guess we never really moved on") and apparently this guy misses this other girl too. and well. both of them in the conversation apparently have other people that theyre with, and the guy even admits that "sometimes i wish she was you".

and he even ends off with "but girl you make it hard to be faithful, with the lips of an angel".

okay fine. i can tell they still like each other a lot, even though they ended it off a while ago. but why do you persist in hiding it from the other people ("no i dont think she has a clue" and "does he know youre talking to me, will it start a fight") that theyre going out with? if youre guilt free it should be okay right? but apparently theyre not guilt free cuz theyve pretty much admitted that they still like each other even though theyre going out with other people.

uhh. id be really concerned if my boyfriend were singing this song. but thankfully, i do not have a boyfriend. whew. but its a sweet song, nonetheless. sweet in terms of the soul he sings it with. though the moral thing eats at me a bit.

okay fine korea is tonight, seeya lot. you can still sms my phone if you want, i wont be bringing it along for fear that some morons dont know im off to korea and actually sms and waste money. i shall end off with the lyrics to "lips of an angel" to prove my point.

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

/edit.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! (my real one la.)

korea be tomorrow. i am glad for this holiday, a true vacation and i can bloody relax for once. only when i get back my fitness is gonna be fuxed. muchly fuxed. better do pumping once im over there. though mom is gonna scold me if i do cuz she gonna go all "this is a holiday!" and she wont understand that if i dont do it, im gonna be dead once i get back.

Junyi i miss you already!

finished all my seniors' notes today, all 23 of them. did from 8am all the way til 1:20pm. with an hour's break for lunch of course. darn im good. made it really personalised, except for some j2 guys whom i really didnt recall any memories that we'd had together so i just thanked them and drew stick figure deaths to cover the space.

i drew death by shooting, death by burning, death by OMNISLASH, death by being thrown into a dustbin and kicked down a hill and into a swamp and death by being flushed down a toilet bowl. how entertaining. now gillian chen yun skarina daniel thinks im weird. but then again shes always thought i was weird, ever since i started calling myself limpeh. walao eh, get in touch with your cheena side also cannot issit?! kao. xP

now i think that the seniors are gonna think im weird once they get my notes. ohwells. GEP LOVE! <3

btw, i realized that i want a "die, noob" shirt. anyone game to come to coro with me to get one printed? xD after korea of course. whoohoo.

okay lots of pple like NUSH and BEE and GERO have been bugging me for souvenirs. nush wants cute pens (you owe me brownies, woman), bee wants food and crap and gero wants sakura flowers. uhh. okay.

and. about my love life...
(hey boy whatcha gonna do about us?)
...huh. you think i'm really gonna tell you is it? xD!
to youknowwho the jerk, im sick of your cheesy love lines.
dream on, sucker. xP
goodbye, &i am so over you.
okay buhbye pple. must miss me okay!

well. its regatta part 2. i shan't go into debrief, cuz its way intense and well. there were things said that i would like to remember privately. (not a good sign huh. yeah.) floodgates were opened and etc. stuff like that.

just proud that i was able to do 55 sets of simple exercises today. way proud. its painful sure, but i know i will improve after today. and also i managed to finish my rice in 10 mins as per mr yong's instructions.

the previous regatta post i just said one thing "pain is my friend". after regatta part 2, i can say i have a lot of friends. physical pain was there no doubt. emotional pain was present during debrief. i think im beginning to turn into a masochist.

regatta '06 is something to remember. last year regatta '05 was the turning point for the A div team and hopefully it will be the same this year.

(and in completely separate news from above, i'm gonna fucking miss you, Junyi. i really really am. love you, babe. always.)

okay the last post was fuxed. didnt really wanna list out every damn thing anyways so yeah. but i realized that i forgot to blog about fridaaaaaay. (:

well okay so on friday afternoon me went out for a meeting/reunion of sorts with choonhiang, lianghwei and the PAP boy. hung at choon's house, his room is scary neat without any scary papers flying about. i suppose its cuz he has more space. and his floor is white. WHITE! shinywhite too. i am muchly envious.

then we watched lame vids. Junyi darling, i want a SPORK for my birthday, you hear! a spork! buy it from thinkgeek.com, search for titanium spork kthxbye. (: ahaha.

then we went to Outback Steakhouse and boy the stuff there is super ex. our bill came up to $150.35. i kid you not. liang and choon paid (with daniel contributing ten bucks) cuz they agreed that they would treat us anyways. lovely . (:

and uhh later at home, choon told me two pieces of news. one was lovely. (: (koff! congrats yeah.) and the other was a bit weird. but well, i'll see how it goes. (:

friday was lovely anyways. today was mostly fuxed. ohwells. cant have it all right.

of singapore river regatta 2006, from the POV of an njcanoeist in boat b.

pain is my friend.

'nuff said.

1. How old do you wish you were? 19. with half a year's holiday til uni starts. (:
2. Where were you when 9/11 happened? i was just 10, and looking at the news and seeing the towers collapsing.
3. What do you do when vending machines steal your money? attempt kicking it.
4. Do you consider yourself kind? actually, yes. too damn kind.
5. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? right delt.
6. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? french. or maybe jap.
7. Do you know your neighbours? rather.
8. What do you consider a vacation? anywhere where you truly feel relaxed.
9. Do you follow your horoscope? read it for interest, but not really.
10. Would you move for the person you love? depends.
11. Are you touchy-feely? ahaha. i hug like mad.
12. Do you believe that opposites attract? depends.
13. Favourite tv channels? channel 5. hurhur.
14. Favourite place to go on weekends? my bed.
15. Showers or baths? showers. theyre faster, and baths are often messy.
16. Do you paint your nails? errr. no.
17. Do you trust people easily? yeah, so my mother says and she would know wouldnt she?
18. What are your phobias? dont really have any.
19. Do you want kids? i suppose.
20. Do you keep a handwritten journal? no.
21. Where would you rather be now? away from this.
22. Who makes you warm and fuzzy? huh. no one, currently. fluff songs, maybe?
23. Heavy or light sleeper? heavy. but im damn sensitive to light.
24. Are you paranoid? nah.
25. Are you impatient? yesss.
26. Who can you relate to? dont know.
27. How do you feel about interracial couples? im fine with them.
28. Have you been burned by love? til im black and crispy. (:
29. What's your pick-up line? uhh. i dont do pick up lines. >.<
30. What's your main ringtone on your mobile? the usual nokia tune thing.
31. What were you doing at midnight last night? chatting online with various people.
32. What did the last text on your mobile say? canoeists reminding me to buy crap for regatta.
33. Whose bed did you sleep in last night? my own.
34. What colour shirt are you wearing? uhh. its kinda multicoloured. (my jammies)
35. Most recent movie you watched? high school musical. IM SORRY JUNYI. heh.
36. Name three things you have on at all times? all times? cant think of any.
37. What colour are your bedsheets? white with blue fish swimming around.
38. How much cash do you have right now? too damn lazy to count
39. What's your favourite part of the chicken? drumstick and thigh.
40. What's your favourite town/city? i would say Paris, but since ive never been there i really wouldnt know.
41. I can't wait 'til: i leave for my holiday.
42. What did you have for dinner last night? ban mian.
43. How tall are you barefoot? 161cm.
44. Do you own a gun? no.
45. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? milk, soyabean. out of habit.
46. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? i'll be 25 huh (nearly 26). having the time of my life and screwing everything up. (:
47. Last thing you ate? my ban mian. =.=
48. What songs do you sing in the shower? depends on my mood.
49. Last thing that made you laugh? something gero said on msn last night, i think.
50. Worst injury you ever had? prolly my swollen/crooked fingers. and some random sprains.
51. Does someone have a crush on you? AHAHA YEAH RIGHT.
52. What's your favourite candy? chocolate. (:
53. What song do you want played at your funeral? whatever is on my playlist.
54. Eight people to do this? aiyah for once im too damn lazy to list. whoever wants to do just do la.

well. my finger joint's still screwed, and im hoping that it wont be too screwed by time regatta comes round this weekend. i also thank God that im a right rower and the injury is on my left hand so im quite sure i can whack hard. (:

and ive also learnt that matthew has no aesthetic sense whatsoever, judging from his senior farewell cards, which consist of just coloured paper with like 4-7 lines of black ink on them. (4 for the girls, 6-7 for the guys) which reminds me, i need to get started on my own farewell cards. bah. need to do like slightly over 20 cards. ;_; i see painful hands in my future.

about my fitness test, which i had to do due to the fact that im off on holiday like next week, i pwned inclined pullups and situps but completely screwed running. the criteria was 25 inclined in 30 seconds, 35 situps in a minute and 12 mins for 2.4km.

i did 30 inclined, 40 situps and 12:47 for running. whoooops.

at least it was an improvement of my napfa timing which was 12:5sth. so i beat myself. (: my personal best for 2.4! how sad. i simply must strive to break the 12:30 barrier next year. by time i leave njc, ill do below 12 minutes. (: whee.

anyways! i suppose the post ends here cuz ive nothing else to say. buhbye then.

i finally decided to find out what all the hype in our dear level was about: high school musical. thats right, i finally dl-ed and watched the thing. cuz well since the whole of 06 just did a cover (kind of) of it for ip induction and it actually sounded pretty good. so well i plopped down at 1120pm last nite and watched like like 110am.

well, there is actually a plot. (: and the characters are also relatively well developed. though i feel that some parts of the pot were kinda being rushed, and the characters were kind of rather transparent/cliche. but then again its HIGH SCHOOL musical, so yeah.

and well. its by disney. ahaha.
(i still think pixar pwns, but this movie will do)

okay. but i have to admit that the saving grace of the movie is definitely the songs. which is rather good, considering the fact that the actors and actresses are not well known at all. they might not be to Junyi's taste, them being the usual fluff sap lovesongs i like, but yeah theyre quite nice. (: ahaha.

my fave is start of something new. breaking free and we're all in this together is quite good too. i like the dance sequence at the end, ahaha.

uhh im betting that Junyi/shiyuan/SY will stare at the movie and maybe expire, but maybe people like samc/kevin/chia/ele could give it a try since well its sap and sap is always good for the soul. xD so whee high school musical!

on a more sombre note, i appear to have killed my left hand's fourth finger's joint. it has swollen up to 1.5 times its original size and all cuz i thwacked it a little during today's trng which was abll games. haha reminds me why i quit bball. at least i wont need to worry about any more crooked fingers cuz in this case its the joint not the whole finger. and well it looks kinda weird now cuz only the bottom part (the joint area) is swollen and not the top part. looks a bit like the snake that ate the elephant in the little prince.

also i fell down and now a part of my right hand was bleeding. whee.

but my team kinda pwned, cuz we threw into empty spaces/sprinted forward/ran into empty spaces/blocked like we were severely attracted to the other person/just kept running/etcetc. so yeah ahaha my team is hot. people, you know who you are!

wheeeeeee. feeling relatively nice now cuz of fluff music. and anyways i just leveled the SO3 gang from level 23 to 26 and its enough to kill me. trying to get them to level 30 before they kick the ass of the first boss (bloody dragon) but well the experience points needed are daunting me some. so im taking a break and getting back to it prolly tonight or maybe tmr or the day after, cuz well. im really trying to get them done with that stupid part of the game before i fly off for Korea next tues so yeah. and well since my entire weekend is filled with River Regatta 2006, i figure i wont have time to play at all.

let me see how many points needed til level 27. approximately 4000. i kick the ass of some random monster (usually another bloody dragon) and the most it gives me is 271 points. tell me if im frustrated. grah. and the points increase every time i gain a level so kthxbye i think i really need a rest like now.

and uhh. why level 30? cuz thats when Fayt learns Lightning Blade, Cliff learns Fists of Fury and Nel (ZOMG YAY) learns Flying Guillotine. and well, if you know dragons and you know my top three team, Cliff and Fayt's HP is simply not good enough and they need tons of healing to pwn the ass of the 271 point dragon. furthermore, Nel is almost virtually useless against dragons that are above ground (i.e. that are flying) cuz all she can do is hurl Ice Daggers. and the rest usually need healing so shes practically on permanent healing/resurrection duty. and well. against normal enemies its okay, but against the big boss i will confirmed die. so i really really need her to learn Flying Guillotine cuz thats gonna be the only other effective attack she can do!!!

i twitch in much horror. i hate flying monsters.

alrighty. i suppose i must be off, for rest is in order until tonight where i pwn the hell outta those bloody dragons. later, folks.

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (dont we all?)	× I don't watch much TV these days. (OH LORD NO NOT THE TELLY.)	✓ I own lots of books. (i need another bookshelf.)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games. (SO3! FF! <3)	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (hurrrhurrrr. its against my moral values to tick this, even though id love to.)
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (havent we all?)	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (^_^;;)	× I hate the rain. (i love it.)
× I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (we all wish, huh.)	✓ I need/want money right now. (XD!)
✓ I love sushi. (yum.)	✓ I talk really, really fast. (so the china scholars say.)	× I have fresh breath in the morning. (=.= do you?)
✓ I have long hair. (long enough.)	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (Junyi could do without it though (:)
✓ I like the way that I look. (IM SSSS-HOTTT, SUGAR.)	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	✓ I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. (mmhm? i hope.)	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (oh darling, darling.)	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. (until radiation and heat sets in.)	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (not really PASSED OUT, but yeah cant really remember too well. 2k class chalet, anyone?)	✓ I've rejected someone before. ((:)
✓ I currently like/love someone. (hurrrrhurrrr.)	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future. (lose the pregnancy bit.)
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn. (dont we all.)	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (nah, couldnt live with myself.)
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat. (neither.)	× Republican. (neither)
× I don't even know what I am. (a person, maybe?)	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
✓ I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people. (YES! i officially have the worst taste in men, ever!)	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses. (hugs pwn. you can get them from anyone. (:)
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	× I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before. (and didnt really take much off anyways.)	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (okay thats just plain weird.)
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole. (so my owm mother says. xD)	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (oh procrastinator me!)
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. (Junyi? xD)	× I have hit someone with a dead fish. (oh i wish i had. that would be dead cool.)
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. (that is...kinda weird. and i AM a girl.)	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (cool!)	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years. (nah. just for a year or two only.)
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	✓ I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. (<3>	✓ I love to sing. (to my showerhead. or to my computer. when no one's around. (:)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (SHERLENE CHAT SHOULD TICK THIS!)
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human. (Junyi? xD)	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays. (really minor ones like the Nativity in P2 when i was Mary. =.=)
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (oh baby, dont we all.)	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (during the holidays! <3)	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out. ((:)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	✓ I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems. (row row row my boat!)	✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (YES IT IS.)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love. (uhh. no? you can hate someone on principle.)	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

i simply must blog about how annoying i find Boston by Augustana now.

look i actually do love that song, and my bro has had it for ages and ages. quite literally months and months. however suddenly the whole damn level is listening to it. which is actually okay and fine by me, but now theyre consistently quoting lyrics off it and putting it on their msn nicks. i mean fine i love to put lyrics on my nick as much as any other person but GAH! cant you lot have any imagination? why all from the same song?

and almost all are from that sunrise sunset bit.

i bite my pillow in horror. since, indie music has become mainstream. wtffff.

whoo, congrats to Junyi and samc for officially turning FIFTEEN today!

(walao eh so young. xD)

okay fine i shall not be mean. but we had an awesome time ytd at junyi's house having the birthday bbq. managed to keep my reputation as being the first one there at junyi's house again! yay. i pwn. we gamed a bit and i gave junyi the present i got. (: EMPIRES ALL THE WAY.

then everyone else started rolling by, and the girls took the ps2 and the guys took the xbox in the other room. we talked about many different things, including uterine linings. xD

got samc his prez too, a nice white pig moneybank thing. it is friggin cute kays.

then we headed down for bbq, and afterward we tried to get the boys down into the pool but the stupid security guard stopped us as we (samc, des and i) were just about to detach yw off js and yl and drag him down but gah stuff sucks that way. ahaha.

we had fun though. (:

went home afterward with chia, and gen's parents fetching. much love to my darlings for making ytd so lovely! whee <3 however i had to miss tuition ytd, so thus i have make up tuition today. grah. today was trng, and i discovered that my blisters have blisters. so i need to go pop the blister on top of my previous blister now. bye.

you were everything, everything that i wanted.

the cooking for ip induction went surprisingly fine. we didnt poison the juniors or burn down ms selva's house. whoo! although nush was horribly late and i made her buy me sushi.

induction was...normal. nothing much to say, only that we gave wl his prezzie today and he seemed to like it so yay haha.

cca workshop today and it was actually fine. db-ed like heck, and got to know a few more people. later, we the ip1s and ip2 (since theres only ONE ip2 now) went to j8 to eat subway/mos burger/breadtalk and take NEOS. the last time i took neos was in FEB this year. so im really really glad that ive taken neos like twice this year already! (i sound so...nevermind. haha.)

yay neos!

at home now, nice and clean and etc. tmr be Junyi's party. i cannot wait.

pic taken by Junyi darling. but yeah these are njc dance party pics. xD me, wl, charvi, sneha and rach! charvi doesnt like this pic cuz she says she doesnt look good but ahaha who cares tis a hot pic! thats us after the party anyways, so i guess the general "wet" look is cuz we've been dancing for the past few hours.
taken on the dance floor! and edited. not by me though, my editing sucks. but we are D2BD, and that nite was our triumph! ahahaa. thats me, wl and rach.

and oh yes, the trngs for the past two days (yesterday and today) were both super killer. like ytd all we did were six sets of (deceptively simple sounding) suicides, but i later learnt why they were called SUICIDES instead of something like "airy fairy tinkles" or whatever.

suffice it to say that i wished i was dead after that. or that i was halfway dead by then. but the fact that i was alive was very much debatable. we did six sets, after my third i went to the toilet and puked out my breakfast. after that i did my last three sets, tottered to the side gate and found it was locked. thus i stopped at the grandstand and stoned and tried to keep the rest of my meagre breakfast down. i failed, puked again right then and there before making my way to the bus stop to go to venezia to meet the OM group.

ahaha all we did there was eat and stone anyways but it was fun. (: later went to charvi's house to stone again before meeting Junyi at J8 to buy presents for wl and charvi's sister. the poor child has a major headache and was grumpy as Garfield the cat. but the darling still came to meet me. SEE JUNYI IS WAY BETTER THAN ANY SMELLY BOYFRIEND. i can prove this point as anybody else (particularly any boy who has a headache/realized it was raining heavily/school is at VJC and eons away from J8) would definitely NOT have come. but Junyi did and kudos for that! <3

and today, well. training in the morning and boy was it tough. was pushed to within an inch of my life and just have to thank the seniors in my group for pushing me and knowing how far i could go (you know who you are xD). i was so desperate for water but there wasnt any break so for the first time ever (i ahve been in njcanoeing for a year or so and this is the first time im doing this) I DRANK WATER FROM MACRITCHIE ITSELF. me, the hygiene freak, who worries about the algae content in the water, just slurped water (possibly unpotable, but seeing as no one has died yet i presume its okay) from the reservoir itself!

uhh if you know me well, that in itself was just a miracle.

ahaha i feel like such a masochist now. when i came out of the water eventually, i realized how much pain felt and i also realized a really astonishing fact. i would not have spent my morning any other way. despite pain and the feeling of expiring right there and then. xD weird huh. ohwells. ahahaa. i shall just simply push further and faster than anyone else, and i will get what i want.

simple example of "see that on the shore? its immortality! take it, its yours!" whatever i want can be mine...as long i whack hard for it and push harder than anyone else who wants it too. like dee said in the water today, if there are two people in a race, one is in front and fighting to pull away and the other is behind and fighting to catch up and whack past, who will be the one to succeed? the answer is: the one who pushes harder and further will be the one to succeed. so what i must do is not be afraid of pain or hardship and just strive to push and have the desire.

pain is my friend! <3

and ahh after that went for OM audits and lala we might not get in though it was fun while it lasted xD. anyways, later on heading to miss selva's house to cook the stuff for IP induction tmr, should be interesting huh. doesnt leave much room for gaming though, cuz i really really need to game cuz im stuck at this stage where i headed all the way back to Aquios from the Shrine of Kaddan to buy more supplies so i need to head through the Sealed Cavern (again) and through the Shrine of Kaddan and kick the big boss's ass (actually theres more than one big boss here) before i can continue with the story. i didnt have a choice though, i was halfway through the SOK when i ran out of berries (stuff for HP and MP) and i still had an entire section of the SOK to cover and i simply couldnt do it.

but still. -enter Nel fangirling here-
shes bloody cool, btw. xD
ICE DAGGERS! SHADOW WAVE!

and anyways, altol has written the sequel to Fire and Ice. its called Gods and Gardens and can obviously be found on ffn. all seiftis fans (or ff8 fans in general) should go check it out. even if youre not a seiftis fan (oh BLASPHEMY!) you should check it out cuz the writing is really good and you can tell much research has gone into planning the story. much love to altol!

two souls journey into an uncertain future...
with even more uncertain feelings.
fire and ice, by altol!

(will farm round for Gods and Gardens banners!)

okay i really need to go shower now, cuz well. i need to leave for clementi mrt in an hour or so. see you lot tmr during IP induction! ahahaha.