i would just like to mourn the death of our generation that folds at one simple word: EXAMS. this reminds of what bern said once: IPs would do anything short of prostituting themselves for marks. and we're not even sure that some of them would stop at that.

its amazing how this transforms people. we binge we scream we mug our asses off we get cranky and emo and bitchy our mood swings are crazy shit and etc.

i dont want to grow up just knowing how to study.
i dont want to see my friends and levelmates morphing into zombies who only know how to mug.
life is so much more than that.
so much freaking more.

and it breaks my heart to see that just because its 2 days before ass week starts, everyone is all about nothing but mugging. even online, people are all like BRB and OFF TO MUG and PLS TEST ME ON THIS RANDOM SUBJECT. if you dont want to talk about anything else other than mugging, dont bother to come online please. people come online to destress kthx.

all this is making me feel...alone. am i the only ip2 in singapore who is NOT mugging AT THIS CURRENT MOMENT. (doing MI journals does not contitute as mugging)

i reeeeally feel like migrating.

havent blogged in forever. theres just so much to do. like mug. and mug. and mug. i mean. wtf? but yeah TODAY IS OFFICIALLY SATURDAY. since twelve midnight just passed.

on 25/9, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHERYL LIM.
on 27/9, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDYBOY.

okay in a nutshell i have been doing physics with nush and she totally cracks me up with analogies of boxy oon her fake husbands and other...things xD and i get emo damn often nowadays. and jonny was nice and played hikari for me on the piano cuz i was feeling so down. and i had a couple of last classes this week. some made me feel damn happy (YAY LAST LESSON OF ____ FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE). some left me feeling empty. cuz i would be taught by that teacher for the last time ever. and it made me feel very sad. for lack of vocabulary at 12 plus.

is this the cause of listening to too much emo FFX-2 music, i wonder.

i dont want to turn into a grade grind. its not a good feeling. but somehow, when im not, i make average results at best, like last year. somehow this time i have to care, obsessively, about my grades. i wonder if this is what the government wants.

like when i saw i was making an A in geog, i was obscenely happy. like, i dont know, last time i wouldve been happy, but it wouldnt have felt so...euphoric. oh dear. i hope this isnt changing me. i dont want to change.

this is turning into a ramble.
screw mugging. im just gonna eat cake and watch videos til tomorrow.
and tomorrow...we'll decide.

a song for you, dear reader.
Epilogue - A Reunion - Takahito Eguchi. from the final fantasy x-2 soundtrack.
with all my love.

HELLO I WANT TO PROCLAIM THAT I OFFICIALLY WANT TO HAVE SHARIFAH SANIAH BTE SYED ADNAN ALJUNIED'S BABIES. THIS IS BECAUSE WE ROCKED THE 20% BIO QUIZ AND SCORED ABOUT 15 MARKS MORE THAN WE AIMED FOR, MAKING IT A VERY SEXY A+ GRADE (thats 85%, hollaz!) AND OBVIOUSLY ROCKETING OUR ENTIRE OVERALL GRADE.

I LURBCH YOU SANIAH ALJUNIED! (and i hope i didnt get your name wrong, hee)

but yes i think my class is going bonkers from too much mugging, today chat started laughing at things that werent even funny and during GC lessons when we played pictionary to destress, lot of educational crap came out.

for example, audz was trying to draw a pastry and somehow people thought it was amylase (digestion) or enzymes (digestion again) cuz she was drawing a person eating the pastry. and gwen drew some econs supply demand graph. and when gill was told to draw polyester (the MATERIAL, like cotton etc), she drew polyester, of ORGANIC CHEM FAME. with H and C and OH and etc. before my eyes on the board sprouted this horror with Cs and Hs and OHs and bonds and...urgh. x_x even when destressing, my class super cmi.

the best was when saniah drew a circle at the beginning of the turn.
saniah: -draws circle-
everyone in my group: UTERUS!!!

and when cheryl booboo was drawing this box with a person inside and an arrow pointing up, my mind was screaming GRAVITY! ACCELERATION! FREE BODY DIAGRAMMMMM!

IPs have no freaking life lah. and thanks to nush for teaching me how to draw a piechart on excel. im noob, i know. and now the highlight of my life is taking the bus back with amanda or cheryl or both. again...i have no life. and also unleashing hugs on the kind of unsuspecting female members of my class's population. but theyre getting used to me, so thats a good/bad thing. hahaha shrugs. (:

i heart 03! <3 and i loved today's last PE lesson of the year.

also in a last point, just want to say that under observation, it is usually guys from all guys secondary schools that do this kind of stupid things like prank calling people to hurt them and to piss them off for fun and etc. get a life lah.

and note i said usually, not always. so if youre a decent guy, im fine with you.

and in completely separate news, physics tutorial is driving me crazy. i wonder if such answers like "who gives a shit" and "like i care" and "wtf is this loon talking about" are allowed cuz i have no idea how PCLM relates to a freaking magnet. though i bet when grace explains it to me ill get it. dammit.

i wonder when boys are ever going to realize that prank calls are stupid, idiotic, juvenile and not funny at all. why do i bring this up again? i was planning to forget about it until there was this slight blowup in class today after school involving a prank call. apparently a bunch of guys in our level had prank called this girl in my class twice, saying some not so nice things. she questioned one of the perpetrators and forced him to tell her the names of the rest.

what sucked the most and made me feel quite disappointed is the fact that at first, the guy seemed to think it was funny and was trying to worm his way out of answering her questions by pointing at various people around class and fake blaming it on them. later on she got pissed, and then i got pissed (cuz i know how it feels) and together we whacked him and eventually we got the names.

i mean. my poor friend was seriously hurt by the comments, especially since this was not the first time in her life she had been on the receiving end of such comments. and fyi, she is very hot too. and here she was, crying and only then did the guy realize like oh crap, we've hurt someone and finally apologised.

does it have to go that far? i dont understand. when people tell you to stop it and that its not funny, why dont they just stop it? do guys find it that fun and entertaining? why dont you all just think before you act? like what are the consequences of my actions, could i hurt someone and so on and so forth. i dont see why someone has to cry to show theyre hurt before you lot come to your senses.

its always "we didnt think..." and "we didnt realize..." that is exactly the problem. you lot dont think!

i have nothing more to say apart from this. prank call her again and you all will die. all the girls in my class will raise up such a stink against you all to the teachers and the principal that you will seriously die.

okay despite all the stress over the past few days and me emoing like theres no tomorrow (and there might not be, what with ass week coming), i am trying my bestest to be happy. my form of happiness is a) taking bus back with cheryl, b) lending my boxers to another chem group for presentation, c) facebooking and d) playing stupid online games like insaniquarium and kol.

yeah i officially have no life. i enjoy doing essays too.
GEOG ESSAY ZOMGZ.

and haha today i KISSED GWEN (on the cheek). laugh laugh. lol lol.
now time to wait til litsem where hopefully ele and wynne will come and get squished silly by the great me. nods most happily and decides to try and rope in mysti, del and ying for the party.
yes gwen i heart joo.

and i heart my class. i do. really.
I HEART YOU 03.

and oh yes Junyi dear, my mother says a typhoon's heading for Shanghai. if you die, i will kill you. take care of yourself alright. cuz i lurbch you more than any other non family related person i know. (YES THE REST OF YOU COME A CLOSE SECOND LAH) i send love to you, hon. TIFF HEARTS JUNYI TOO.

warning. rant ahead.

current mood:-
Hating Hwachong High Homosapiens (otherwise known as HHHH)

that was my feeble attempt to alliterate. this has nothing to do with hwachong jc peeps, you all are lovely people, so ignore this. my gripe only lies with hwach (hs) boys. especially those in alan's class. nothing to do with you either lah, alan.

for the last freaking time. i do NOT appreciate any stupid prank calls, erotic annoying smses or whatever rubbish crap that you full of shit people have to offer. whether it be stealing other people's phones to send me idiotic messages or calling me just to speak in a falsetto is NOT. NOT. NOT. funny. it is simply annoying and idiotic and wasting everyone's time and phone bill.

fine i can take the dumb prank calls. perhaps you lot find it absolutely necessary to call me on alan's phone and be idiots as you have nothing better to do with your time and indulge in such inane pursuits. but i can and will NOT take some mystery anonymous dickhead smsing me on cedric's phone and not only hurling insults at me (f word, anyone? dude, you think using that word makes you sound tough? youre not the only one in the world who knows it.) but also saying some sick erotic crap. whoever the hell you are, i hope you realize this is known as sexual harassment. if i ever find you, i could have you up in front of the freaking police.

i never knew hwach hs boys had such small heads. or maybe whoever you are, anonymous person, you think with your dick instead of your quintessentially tiny brain. whatever it is, it is not funny or cool or entertaining.

whoever does that kinda rubbish next, i will personally hunt you down and make sure you regret it.

/end rant.

on the other hand, physics assignment took up four hours of my life, LA research took up another hour and MI took up another half hour or so. all in all i started at 7pm and slept only at round 2am. so im really REALLY bloody cranky right now.

geog essay. later, folks.

zomgz i just watched maid in manhattan. fine, so ive watched half of it before but this time i watched the entire thing and now im all full of fluff and trying to believe in miracles cuz dammit, its way too sweet.

JLo is so hot. and tyler garcia posey was looking so adorable in it (2002 show) that i imdb-ed him and he is like. my age. and now hes all grown up. and he is so.

so.
so.
so.
so.
so. (x infinity)
HOTTT!

zomgz. his birthday is 18th oct, someone remind me so i can squee about it. but its a really really pretty show. and it reminds me of how long it has been since i last watched a chick flick. my faves are sweet home alabama, maid in manhattan, love actually and legally blonde. so far that is, the list is expandable.

TIFF HEARTS CHICK FLICKS. TIFF IS FEELING VERY VERY FLUFFY.
and a whole night last night doing nothing but watching ouran high school host club is taking its toll on me. i need to remember to chiong my physics assignment tomorrow dammit. hits self.

someone date me for a chick flick after ass week please! ((((:

okay today my entire afternoon, or most of it, was spent screaming at jonny who was playing bioshock, a game involving FPS and zombies. damn scary. which is why i was yelling my head off. something incoherent along the lines of KILL THEM KILL THEM along with vague hitting of his shoulder. doesnt help that the zombies were freaking fugly and the graphics were pretty awesome and the general lighting was quite dodgy, adding to the mood.

im such a wuss.

went out with wl after hcl prelims on monday though, my chances of passing are reasonably high i think. assuming i dont die /too/ badly for cloze. bah. the restaurant cafe place was pretty good. yum. wl i hate you for washing your jacket though, it smells of freaking soap now. and im not sorry for insulting VS! XDXDXD kidding. (:

thankies to all the lovely people who have tagged me on fb. tiff lurbch you long time.
bio quiz on fri. must mug now. ta!
tiff lurbches Junyi too, though i havent talked to you in freaking ages, dammit.

this is kind of like a crossroad in my life.
there are some things that i need to figure out.
i need to know what i want.

and i need to go for it.
even if it could mean what i myself deem as a betrayal of sorts.

the question to me is.
does your future mean more than the relationships youve built up over the past 2 years?

well things have been reasonably normal, with colours award on thurs and teachers' day celebrations on fri passing relatively eventfully. photowhored like mad as usual at colours, and horked so much food off teachers at the celebrations that nush and i were thus labelled as greedy pigs. mrs tan was nice lah, and gave us so much dessert. (:

church today was slack, with teachers' day celebrations too. ate so many cheese tarts that i feel like dying. x_x haha but they were really really good. and its amazing how i had planned how i would write this entry but now im here, i cant think of anything so im just rambling, really.

i feel kind of emo, but not really. especially since i just watched 13 going on 30 yesterday night and it was so awesome. sometimes i feel idealism isnt that far off a shot after all.

i wanna be 30. 30, flirty and thriving. (:
one of these days, life /will/ be beautiful.