Haha hi Tiff has just wasted her entire Tuesday on procrastinate-y things which is not good because Tiff will fail her promos if she continues on like this. Also, Econs was no walk in the park and Tiff missed out an entire 5 mark question because Tiff is a complete bobo. Wtfz.

Anyway, Paul and Tiff have a running bet on whether Paul will retain (which is like so not happening, hello). In fact, Tiff is so sure about this that the bet is that Tiff will eat a styrofoam plate if Paul retains.

Okay enough of third person shit, I'm gonna fail Geog damn soon unless I buck up like now omgomgomgomg totally hating on Geog right now srsly gah.

Dreamt about you again, during my high powered nap before the horror that is Econs. Well the good news is that this time other fun people like the class (I know the class was there, not the whole class but quite a number of them but somehow I can only remember Alex) and Ele (and her mom omg) and even a few stuffed Pokemon were in the dream too so that was pretty cool. I suppose the excuse for the last dream would be that S/Hr fanfic but this time I have no one to blame but myself and my crazy pre-nap imagination. Bad Tiff.

I'm going to have to stop this, its getting rather unhealthy. To Econs again I guess. Also, I have to sms Isaac (haha six hour late sms sorry!) and Sarah Thomas (bring my lit paperrr) now before I forget terribly.

Kissing her was like being locked in silence, like swallowing a desperate sacrament in a watery green cathedral; like a journey, at once both homage and desecration.

A Baudelaire poem. An opium dream.

And, ultimately, an exercise in frustration.

GP was today, and Econs is on Monday and I really should be studying instead of trading songs with Hwee/watching ANTM/Project Runway/Survivor/reading fanfiction. But oh joy, what lovely fanfiction it is. Oh blessed life.

Promos start in 2 days, how absolutely lovely. Time to hit it, biatches. I know I can get past this, I know I can get over this and I won't let anything or anyone distract me RAWR. I am missing you terribly now (I know you're sure as hell not missing me hahaha) and I was tempted to call you at 3am last night but heck you'd kick my ass so well. What I wanted to say and what I felt will just remain a mystery. Eventually I'll forget and maybe thats for the best.

Woke up way beyond Madam's sms at 9:20am ("Press on, AHers!") and promptly got down to Geog before Chrys' call threw me off track and then I went to cook and eat and that threw me even more off track and gah I think I'll slack a bit more and then get back down to mugging and sleep at some crazy shit time and wake up at some crazy shit time and hahaha there goes GP on Friday. Heeheehee.

I'm hoping that after promos, I'll have a better timetable with no loser breaks because thats when I feel the worst in school with everyone else in classes and me out there alone. It sucks to have breaks which no one shares really. The admin is out to kick my ass thats what. Felt terribly alone yesterday during loser break time and Isa popped by and kept me company for like 15 mins under the pretense of a bad stomachache when he was supposed to be in Lit tutorial. I might have crashed his Lit lecture (Hey why doesn't AH get lectures! I want lectures too) but unfortunately it was a tutorial and it would have been too obvious. Thanks anyway, dude. I'll get my paws on your jacket one of these days (:

Just thought I'd blog a bit to keep people like Paul happy hahaha. I love my class. Cheers for promos everyone.

I dreamed I was dying, as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window, threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there, please don't let me die.

I AM SO TIRED AND ANNOYED AND MY EYES FEEL LIKE THEYRE GOING TO FALL OUT AND I HAVE A TON OF LIT HOMEWORK TO DO THAT IS GOING TO FALL DOWN ON MY ASS PRETTY SOON AND I HAVE NOTNOTNOT STUDIED FOR PROMOS AT ALL (the fact that they start next fri nonwithstanding, tiff has a lot of cramming to do!) BUT YEAAA PW IS DONE BYE BITCHES.

oh my. i really really have to thank isaac for this, even if what he did was quite indirect and involuntary. (yeah hi isaac this post is for you and your bvlgari smelling self lah hahahaa)

anyway the bugger added me on friendster. horribly late, and i havent visited my friendster in the past two million years. (thats a thing of lower sec, and now we have facebook anyway) and when i finally went to accept him as a friend, i noticed my profile, and it quoted something corporate's she paints me blue.

suffice it to say, i have rediscovered something corporate. have gotten paws on their album North (i bought leaving through the window a few years ago and i have it in my ipod, but its hardly as good as North). i have fallen in love with them all over again. brings back some memories thats for sure.

sigh. soco, andrew mcmahon, piano rock.
sometimes we're so wrapped up in other new things that we forget the old ones.
how apt, im back to where i begun. its almost like full circle.

have fun at your forum, isaac. and thanks dude.

By my side
You’ll never be
By my side
You’ll never be

have not blogged since last monday, because something bad (think worst case scenario, peeps) happened last tuesday and im trying to get over it. yes. but i suppose its for the best. and im tired of trying to make it work. oh well. c'est la vie.

Cause I’m fake at the seams
I’m lost in my dreams
And I
I want you to know that I can’t let you go
And you’re never coming home again
And you’re never coming home again

thanks to my friends who have been such lovely rocks lately and who have been there for me. despite me not telling them whats really going on, but they have been such lovely bright spots of sunshine that i feel that its like a new chapter and a new life all over again and i love you all so so much. thanks kiddos.

By my side
You’ll never be
By my side
You’ll never be
You’ll never be

in no particular order, this is to deb yeehui paul stick MYPWGROUP chrys isaac. and maybe some others which i may have missed out (sorry!) but still this one's for you all anyway. and to geog soc for keeping me busy. hahaha.

I wanted to tell you I'd changed
I wanted to tell you that things would be different this time
I see you
You see me
Different
I see you
You see me
Differently

also, happy seventeenth alex. us from ac039 send you much love. pw is going good. we'll get our A. i hope. hahaaa.

You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again
You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again
You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again
You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again

i have nothing else to say. we will all move on like sensible people. only wiser and more careful, is all. buy me coffee and icecream and sit me down in a cafe, and maybe ill share with you stories of the days when we were young, idealistic and spent life slacking away. (ugh. bad rhyme.)

song: swans by unkle bob. not the most apt, but it fits enough.

this is called giving up and i'll love you all my life.

warning: rant ahead.

i have just spent the last hour doing some way overdue waxing of my legs after about two months (or more?) of neglect and boy the pain is quite sharp. thought id gotten used to it but apparently long periods of not waxing leads to stuff like this happening. robinsons ran out of my brand of choice, veet waxing strips, so i had to use nair for once and im never going to do so ever again because those morons didnt enclose any perfect finish wipes and that left me with leftover wax on my legs that doesnt come off ever not even with water or soap and thats the annoying part. they told me to use baby oil, but heck i dont bloody own any baby oil so in the end i had to open up my older veet wax strips pack and use one of my precious perfect finish wipes. imagine using veet to solve nair's problem. wtf. never buying it ever again seriously i was so annoyed. but at least ive nice hairless legs now thank goodness ugh.

/end rant
okay im really tired and ive pw to finish up so yes bye.

EDIT: PW IS DONE AND I HAVE TO STOP LISTENING TO NATALIE PORTMAN'S SHAVED HEAD (its a band) and their awesome song sophisticated side ponytail. the vid is so awesome i wanna do some shrooms and go on an acid trip manzxzxzxzxzx ahahahaaaaaa.

Perdona si te estoy llamando en este momento
Pero me hacia falta escuchar de nuevo
Aunque sea un instante tu respiracion

its strange how holidays seem to fly by (omg, its wednesday already!) while the actual week takes ages to pass. sometimes i just feel like conking the dumb clock, seriously. ugh. but just an update on janelle's last supper before she flies off.

went to random expensive place and ate random expensive pasta (okay technically the prices were relatively normal, my pasta cost about 14 bucks, but im just being cranky cuz im feeling very poor and have like no money whatsoever kthx) and listened to gid play 'shoot shag marry' and 'would you rather' til my teeth nearly fell off from laughing.

(:

inventio yesterday was good (as was the day out with you) so that makes me a happy but tired tiff. yay. but still there is much work to be done and i should be getting down to it but omg what holiday is this wtfzzz.

econs mock paper (IAMGOINGTOFAILMYECONSPROMOS) and lit extra lesson today were good though. okay fine, econs was crap and lit was eye opening as always. the three owners of the animal kingdom of 1AH sat together and cuddled each other's animals haha. and lunch was at ikea with hwee, paulie, jy and gwee which made tiff happy again because she missed ikea meatballs lots.

i should stop spending so much money.
(but its the holidays!)
shut up, inner voice.
ugh tired bed bye.