(The lyrics below are by Cursive.)

‘Why I should leave… no - Why I’m leaving you for him. Well, let’s see here… well, let’s see; where should I begin? Every night you get annihilated with all your friends, and every night I drink alone until you stumble home wanting some - like some fuck and run. I know you sleep around, I see it in the eyes of those girls. Those fucking girls… they smile and nod, but never offer a single word - I’m just in the way - I’m the ball and chain, you’re the jailbird chirping, “Wow hard life is in the cage!”, how hard it is waking up next to me. Well, you’ve dug this hole, come on and fill me up. When you said you loved me I knew I was getting fucked. You said you’d never let go - all that stopped… you used to turn me on, now we’re just getting off. That’s why I’m leaving you.’

And the drunken erratic response from April’s ex-boyfriend Trevor Post, upon finding said various notes:

You really, really think this guy is gonna make it all right? You told me you could never be in love with another man, “Oh, but this one is it!” But I remember when we met we knew that this was the end. Yeah, I remember - I remember everything - the haircuts, the dollar movies. We used to sneak a six pack in your bag, and wait for a girl to scream or a car to crash so we could crack open our cans. Or the time you shaved my head in the front yard; a passerby stopped to take a picture – we ended up in the paper. And now you want to leave? Well, maybe I forgot a couple things, it doesn’t mean I don’t remember how it feels when you’re lying naked next to me. Valentine, I want to feel your hips pressed up against mine. We’ll push into each other - love’s alive. It might be fleeting, but it’s ours and it’s tonight… so won’t you reconsider love-lost lives? You might be lonely, but I’m still by your side. You might have to leave, but not tonight.

(Its me again. I don't know if this song makes me believe in love again or not.)

Yeah happy CNY everyone! Growing fat is possibly the best thing ever. Whoohoooo.
Anyway apparently my parents squeezed all their visiting into two days (Sunday and Monday) so that leaves us disgustingly free today which is so strange cuz when I rang and smsed people wanting to go out people are like I'M BUSY CUZ I HAVE VISITING/HOMEWORK/TUITION and its like ahhh I am so friendless and lonely but then ANNUSHKHA SHARANYA SINNATHAMBY comes to the rescue and spends 11am to 3pm with me! Yaaay, expensive soup/coffee/icecream and fun!

But honestly today was a lovely day and we should totally hang out together way more often especially since we're in diff schools now, ugh. See you next Tuesday for our fun date, my favouritest Nush!

Now waiting at home for the parents to come back. Ugh. On a random note: bye bye to David cuz he has to book back in todayyy to Tekong where there is no bak kwa and whatever (:

Well I shall shamelessly admit that TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY! Its amazing how birthdays sort of change your perspective on the world really. Here I was being all emo and all omg I'm gonna go eat worms (oh you know how the rest of the song goes) and today was a pretty normal day (BUDGET DAY PWNS YOU) but somehow just somehow the blessings of life just shone through and became so apparent.

I know, it doesn't take much to make me happy.

Suddenly starting from 12 midnight, I have had tons of facebook birthday messages/smses/personal wishes/etc from people I thought had possibly completely forgotten about me (Hah, evidently not). Of course the AC gang, the NJ gang, random seniors and people I haven't spoken to in at least a year or two or more, some CAP people etc etc etc.

I swear I got the (pleasant) shock of my life when messages rolled in from the seniors especially.

Somehow, I know the rest of the year is going to be beautiful, no matter what happens and whatever comes my way. Because I have people who love me (I hope!) and who care enough for me to do stuff like this (:

I know, boring title. My brain is currently a bit smashed and I haven't even started my weekend homework due to the fact that I currently feel like crap. I needs to catch up on sleep and figure out my crazy after school timetable for next week.

J2's been pretty alright so far, more fun than J1 for sure haha, but I can't help but feel slightly drained after the first week of school. Knowing its only going to get worse isn't really helping much. I don't want to become disillusioned if I think too much and whatnot, cuz that's just going to make me miserable and I have had enough of that.

Today was interesting though, especially since my timetable was crazy shit. To make up for the rest of my slack days (ending at 12:30pm, anyone?) the timetabling committee decided to slap me with the Mother of all crazy Fridays. I have 5.5 hours of nonstop lessons from 10:50am all the way to 4:30pm. PLUS 5 periods of GP in the morning. So yes, tonight we dine in hell etc.

Got hungry about halfway through and had to sneak hash browns into lit class. The admin is teh failz, srsly.

About my different subjects (because there is nothing to blog about, moo) I find myself starting to not-mind Math and Econs as much as I did last year (who else remembers me bitching about these two subjects!) and I also have taken more of an apathetic stand towards GP and maybe Geog. Like...meh. I'm starting to feel though, that I may be falling out of love with Lit. Its gone from loving it like crazy, looking forward to every lesson, to just going through the motions whenever a lesson crops up. I'm slightly concerned, especially since Lit used to be my life.

Now my timetable is full of subjects I don't mind. I don't think that is necessarily good, especially I'm the kind of person who believes a lot in passion, and somehow I'm losing it, and I don't know how that will affect me and Lit in the future. Its an unsettling empty feeling.

BUT IN HAPPIER NEWS, yesterday there were fun times going on with Paul/Hwee/Chrys/Gwee when we went to the CJLMXLB (thats Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao, for all you people who don't frequent Holland V much) to have lunch and damn the food is awesome but it was a bit rushed cuz Chrys and Gwee had to rush back to school and Paul had to go get some ID for NS in order to NOT get thrown in jail. Very cool. Today was also another retail therapy day, Deb/Hwee and I went to Raffles City to get Jared's present (his birthday is on Sunday!) and pick up some graphic novels. Also, Starbucks' Chocolatey Danish is really really zomgz tasty. GP while Madam is on course is also very fun because after I finished most of the work she had given us, Paul and I koped JY's iPod and started singing along to chinese duets and old school songs hahaha! That was definitely one of the better parts of today.

...methinks I might need some time to find myself. I don't know if I have the kuxury of that time though. There is always some measure of pain in every day, but I suppose Mrs Chan was right during this morning's devotions when she mentioned that each one of us has blessings in our lives and all we need to do is just look for it. I tried today, and I honestly saw more blessings than I could count (mostly in the form of my lovely awesome friends). Hopefully, these blessings will be enough to carry me through the year.

After all, it'd be pretty embarrassing to say I'm feeling slightly burnt out after only the first friggin week of school! :D

My name is Ami James and I am a tattoo artist. You can see most of my work right here on South Beach. A year ago, I opened my own shop with three of the greatest artists and four of the best friends a guy could ever have.

I was going to blog about Open House but I changed my mind cuz it was mostly relatively uneventful. So anyway, tonight while I was busting my chops on my (voluntary of sorts but I decided to do it anyway because I suck at Econs and really ought to be putting more effort into my work...or attempting to anyway) Econs essay, I realised Junyi was online so we started chatting and ZOMG Junyi actually knew who Ami James was! Apparently, we're both watchers of Miami Ink. Which is completely fantastic because I don't know anyone else who watches it. I guess we truly are besties! :D Hahaaa.

I swear after watching Miami Ink almost nonstop, the words in italics are starting to give me the shivers man. I get really happy whenever Ami narrates at the beginning! He makes me happy (: him being his usual bald, aggressive, temperamental (EXTREMELYHAWTANDSEXY) Jewish dude self.

...Junyi thinks I've a thing for angmoh bad boys. >_>

BUT NOW MY ECONS IS DONE SO I'M GONNA GO WATCH ONE (just oneee) EPISODE OF MIAMI INK BEFORE I GO TO SLEEEEP! :D I leave you with hot awesome sexy pictures of Ami James (: and his pretty tattoos.
/I'D SAVE MY SKIN FOR YOU.

Well it was the first day of school today and I felt strangely awake despite my body clock still needing a bit of a tune up (I'm starting to feel a bit sleepy now. Uh oh) but I was very psyched to see the rest of the AH peeps again. We're 2AH now! How weird!

Didn't eat much though, and pumped myself with teh ping and kopi milo cuz thats prolly what I missed most while away from the canteen. Thankfully the prices in the canteen have dropped! Apparently cuz we did a survey last year and complained about the prices so the principal talked to the vendors and got them to drop their prices. My school rocks, whew. However, now fried food will be sold only on Tuesday and Thursday and from March onwards, Thursday only (FRIED FOOD THURSDAY) which was sort of queer actually. We're getting a new caifan stall too.

I guess these improvements give me less of a reason to hop over to ACSI for lunch now :D

So well. School went good actually. Until I found something out which both sort of amused me and hurt me at the same time. I suppose thats the only blip about today which otherwise was a completely lovely first day. I'm trying not to give anything much away, but Gid called my reaction to that something a "survivor's mentality" or something like that.

...I don't know if thats a good or bad thing.

But now the school is nice and quiet without the J1s coming in yet and the candeck is a lovely place to be. I hope this lasts. But somehow I don't think it will. Have to push through though. Also, I love my shiny new shoes! :D (I know, random.) OPEN HOUSE TOMORROWWW.

Work to do:-
- Read Proof
- Do Econs essay question
- Farm for a pretty GP example book and fill it up
- Finish vocab book

Well well. Today was an absolutely fantastic day, and I spent it with my girls Nush Bee Estella Cheryl. Couldn't sleep til 7am and had to wake up at 10am (yes thats 3 hours of sleep) so first thing I did was to grab a cup of coffee from the J8 Coffee Bean to wire myself up and then bus myself over to Nush's house. Turns out I didn't need to worry cuz they took ages to reach Nush's house due to the stupid Bio/Chem/whatever tests they had and kept me waiting for like...one hour. Rahhh. So I did a random exploration of Nush's estate and its quite pretty, for all uber inside it is.

Later when they finally came, we ate awesome shepherd's pie and just sat and talked (and talked and talked and talked and etc) so that was a god way of catching up with each other. Bummed around with the comp and attempted watching movies for a while the suddenly Cheryl had to go for band (-.-) so we walked her out and decided to go to the Jacob Ballas Children's Garden on a complete whim with a pair of rollerskates, a pink skate scooter, two bikes and two cameras.

'Nuff said, we camwhored til the cows came home. Before Bee had to go for training that is. Its been AGES since I had a good camwhoring session, really. All the pictures turned out to be lovely! Wow wow wow.

Finally, we headed back sans Bee and Cheryl and while Estella/Nush were tagging pictures on FB (GO SEE ITS AWESOME), I was koping Nush's Elizabeth Arden red nail polish to do an inexperienced pedicure on myself. Which turned out relatively well I think. Hahaaaa. Then we all showered using Nush's plethora of bathroom products (I am in love. Everything smells so good.) before heading to the kitchen to talk some more.

I don't know, I somehow felt happier and more complete today than ever before. It was a strange feeling to have at first before I slowly grew into it and began enjoying it. It truly was a beautiful day :D Here is my new FB profile pic, I finally changed it after three freaking years of the same old IP1 picture.

Hi second post of the day!

I have a new record of TEN PLAYERS heavily injured in FM2009, the shortest being for a period of three weeks and the rest stretching to mostly a month or two (but one of my poor defenders is out for 5 months, no I don't know how that happened either. Its a torn calf muscle or something). That's 4 midfielders, 3 strikers, 2 defenders and 1 goalie. It also means I have NO MIDFIELD WHATSOEVER (I only have 3 midfielders left) and have to resort to playing 4-2-4 and playing some people slightly out of position.

This is getting ridiculous.

But the good news is that its coming to the end of the season so hopefully I can weather the storm ahead! Also managed to kick Portsmouth's ass 5-1 despite getting two players injured in the process. Of course the bad news is that I have some really tough matches coming up ahead (Real Madrid, Chelsea and Arsenal) and that's not good when my squad is almost practically naked.

>.< Ahhh.

/edit: After blogging, I promptly clicked on my inbox to find that another defender is out for three weeks after suffering a strained neck while jumping for a header during training.
...WAHPIANGZX.

Boo chicka wow wow today WL made me wait 1.5 hours for him at Vivo cuz he was running very very late for our trip to Sentosa (hatez you haha) but anyway it went very well and I expect pictures up on FB anytime soon. The sun was friggin hot (well, duh I suppose) and we met our fair share of making out couples who don't understand that a beach is meant for tanning and not smoochies. Get a room, for Pete's sake, instead of doing your under-the-shirt action under a coconut tree in the full view of the rest of the world.

But it was a lovely day, and I have a sort of tan now. Which makes me relatively happy (:

Now on to the gripe of the day. I count myself as a Twilight fan. Not a hardcore ZOMGZEDWARDCULLENILURBCHYOU fan, but a fan nonetheless. In fact, I categorically state right here and right now that I would not date Edward Cullen and I do not think Robert Pattinson is as cute as people think he is. Honestly, he was wayyy hotter in Goblet of Fire. I would rather date Emmett Cullen/Kellan Lutz but unfortunately in the book/movie/real life, ALL ARE TAKEN so yes it sucks to be me ))):

However imagine my horror and o.O and WTFness when I saw this while randomly surfing Perez Hilton.



Yes. You saw it. Twilight perfume. Holy-freaking-hell! But anyway enough of the shock and horror due to the existence of such a fragrance, I shall now continue reading my fanfiction and forget all about the world. While waiting for myself to be tagged by today's pictures of course :D

A quiz that Stick tagged me to do. Gonna head to bed after this, the last two hours have been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster, what with emo fanfiction and the whole stupid magazine article drama. >.< (I'm sorry, again!) 1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmpetc on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS! 4. Tag 5 or more friends IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? Eve, The Apple Of My Eye - Bell X1 (which made no sense whatsoever)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Invisible Man - 98 Degrees (THIS IS A BIT OF A CREEPY ANSWER HAHA)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Purest of Pain - Son by Four (No I'm not that emo, really. Haha.)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Take Me Anywhere - Tegan and Sara (okay this kind of makes sense)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Glamorous - Fergie (WHOOO YEAH BIATCHES!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Lovers and Friends - Lil' Jon and the Eastside Boys (HAHA ITS SCARY HOW APT THIS IS!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Point of Disgust - Low (okay I'm sort of laughing at this answer... Parents = disgusting?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Konstantine - Something Corporate (Oh no, emo shiz)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Digital Love - Daft Punk (Teehee.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Mine All Mine - SheDAISY (Yeah Junyi, you're mine!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Pretty Boy - M2M (xD! Okay at least the answers are starting to fit now yay)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Shake It - Metro Station (i.e lets have fun and party our lives away)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
If I Were A Boy - Beyonce (sex changes are out of the question, thankfully.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Protect Your Mind (Vocal Edit) - DJ Sakin and Friends (This is one of those sad but kind of true answers, but the song is nice!)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I'm Just A Kid - Simple Plan (TOO FRIGGIN TRUE. Couldn't help but laugh when I saw the title. In my defence though, I just put the whole Simple Plan in my iPod. I don't actually listen to that crap anymore.)


WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
From This Moment On - Shania Twain and Bryan Adams (YES I was actually planning to possibly play this at my future wedding, should I ever have one cuz hell I wouldn't want to marry me so its strange to fathom that someone ever could.)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Fly Away - Nelly (xD Thanks.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
5 Years Time - Noah and the Whale (Hwee will be so proud.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Something Stupid - Robbie Williams and Nicole Kidman (No guys I love you tons honestly hahah)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Swans - Unkle Bob (The lyrics say "You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again." I suppose thats explainable.)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
No Air - Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown (HAHAHAHA OMG too freaking funny)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Stay (I Missed You) - Lisa Loeb (I might regret that forever, but I know I could not have done anything about it so...)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Mr E's Beautiful Blues - Eels (Goddamn right, its a beautiful day! - Lyrics)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield (Aw. Sort of true, I loved Maid in Manhattan!)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
One More For Love - Five for Fighting (I suppose thats an idealistic way of looking at it.)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
I've Never Been To Me - Charlene (Okay, thats a very real fear. And I suppose a 1982 song is the best way to bring that across.)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Valentine Girl - New Kids On The Block (WHY DO THESE OLD SONGS KEEP COMING ON AT THE RIGHT TIME AH)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Our Lives - The Calling (Wow, thats a lot to change isn't it)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう - DBSK (Title translation: why did I fall in love with you. I suppose thats self explanatory.)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight - The Postal Service

YOU HAVE TO DO THIS:
1) Hwee
2) Isaac? Haha.
3) Han Lin? Haha.
4) Nush? Haha.
5) Okay the question marks are just cuz I'm not sure if a) They will see this and b) They will do it or just ignore it. So option five is YOU YES YOU WHOEVER IS READING THIS RIGHT NOW. HAH.

Emo sentence of the day:-
Even more, I was never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew- knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest- was how love gave someone the power to break you.

AHHH why am I up reading emo fanfiction (which unfortunately true) when I should be watching Phineas and Ferb on Youtube, which is happy and healthy and cute and etc etc etc!
Anyway happy day of sun sea sand in about 10 hours with WL.

2009 has been relatively lovely to me thus far, possibly because school hasn't started yet teehee. Last Friday was positively awesome because I headed out for fun times with Deb, Hwee, Chrys and Gwee and we ate pasta and hung out at Kino where Chrys and Gwee bought super duper uber expensive Moleskine notebooks (I FOUND OUT THE TRUE PRONOUNCIATION: mol-a-skeen-a).

Later they wanted to go watch Ponyo (they meaning Chrys, Hwee, Gwee although Deb and I were like...meh) and this may or may not be a good thing but Ponyo was sold out at Cine so we ended up watching Australia.

Which. Was. AWESOME :D I kid you not. Australia was freaking good, all of us were in raptures. So watch it watch it watch it now! Hugh Jackman is freaking hot, I officially have a crush on him now. But then again I've had a crush on him since the days of Kate and Leopold, this just sort of...cemented it way more.

Anyway still haven't started homework whoohooooo (Paul's doing GP now, last I checked on MSN. Boo) and I have lots of things to do so I better get started tomorrow! (Hopefully.)

THINGS TO DO BEFORE SCHOOL REOPENS:-
1) HOMEWORK WAHPIANGZX
2) Sentosa with WL on Wednesday!
3) Baking time with Nush on Friday! (plus Notting Hill zomgz)
...which leaves me with Tuesday and Thursday to do my homework. Here we go! (because procrastination never felt so good.)

Song of the moment, listen to it and think of me!
Lighthouse Family's High

Haha first post of 2009, while hugging the bear my mother got me from Build-a-Bear. (hughug) But anyway, I'm up late! :D Yeah whats new. Anyway I am in a stupendously good mood right now because I'm heading out to lunch tomorrow with my homegirls Deb and Hwee! (and maybe Chrys and Gwee too, if they choose to tag along that is hahaha.) Also, I have just spent my life watching 1337 music vids on Youtube so I am one seriously happy full-of-squee Tiff.

Have been watching Love Story by Taylor Swift (CMA AWARDS PERFORMANCE ZOMGZ AHHH I love the dress switch!) and If I Were A Boy by Beyonce (lyrics below, wouldn't call it emo, its more poignant than anything else and serves as a good reminder sometimes). But honestly, Love Story is an awesome video (as in the official music video, I'm a sucker for Regency thingums) and her CMA performance was actually quite sweet/cute (koffdressswitchandendingkoff).

Yes I'm full of fluff now :3

Also, FM2009 is going good, not only am I managing the best team in the world MAN UTD (by choice of course), I also got offered the Croatia job! I'M CROATIA MANAGER BITCHES. HAH. Its so cool and I got such a rush when I saw the invite to be Croatia manager in my game inbox. Its like, wow, the game actually thinks I'm good enough :D

More happy things include Eilonwy finally updating A Writer of Fictions (this Dramione fic I've been folowing since forever and its one of the best I've ever read) so I had fun reading through the latest chapter.

...just read through my post and realised it actually doesn't take much to make me happy :O >_> haha amazing isn't it. But I guess its a good thing right haha. Okay going to try and go to sleep now cuz I need to wake up early to meet my girls tomorrow! (the fact that I slept at 6:30am and woke up at 4pm today nonwithstanding) Sooo...byebye (:

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