I am so tired it is not even funny but no choice some things have to be done. Worst thing is that I'm not even doing anything useful like studying or my H3 report or whatever, its all CCA stuff and friend stuff and other out of school stuff so now not only am I tired, I'm also going to flunk out of school and die. How lovely.

Anyway in another case of The Minor Miracle striking, I managed to pass Math and do alright for GP. Two down, three more to go I guess. Econs is back tomorrow I think, which I am VERY FREAKED OUT ABOUT. I think my year's supply of miracles is running out which is bad cuz I sort of want to save them for prelims and A Levels and general uni admissions/scholarships/etc kthx.

Happy 20th birthday, Le Vu! IS TECHNICALLY TOMORROW but eh two hours away is close enough. (:

and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
cuz i was there when you said, forever and always
you didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always.

I know that during Earth Hour you're supposed to turn off everything including the fans but I'll die without my fans so I settled for celebrating half-Earth Hour and just turned off the lights (:

Hence my parents (after my insistence that we turn off all the lights) are now watching TV in the dark and I'm slacking about on my laptop. Hahaha.

Getting a bit stressed over some stuff now but I'm sure I won't remember what stuff the next time I read this. Hurrr. Going out with Nush tomorrow, I swear its so hard to get hold of her that its almost like she's as busy as LKY.

For all the guys out there who want to know, I guess. Lol. I suppose sometimes size really doesn't matter all too much! Don't ask me if this is accurate though, I WOULDN'T KNOW.

Okay because Hwee is one pushy cow who is not content with me blogging a few times every week, and an update just two days ago, here I am again. Hi.

(YOU BETTER TAG ME AFTER THIS AH WTPONG)

Anyway, so Terms are over, thank goodness. Whewww. And after the happy vomit session that was the Geog test, Deb and I headed to Cozy Corner at Coro to just bum and talk and eat. I wanted to head somewhere further but Deb has Art today so well I decided to just be a good friend (: hahaha.

But well today was serious bum time after Hwee pangsehed me for her baking. So now she owes me a lunch date and like half of those awesome cupcakes she abandoned me to bake. Woke up at the crazy time of 2pm (in my defense I slept at like 4am) and just slacked about watching Iron Chef/Pokemon on Youtube and reading fan fiction. The typical boring day of me. Tada~

Now I guess I'm online talking to people and trying to do FB memes which aren't really working out haha and I think next week is gonna be a shit week cuz on Monday alone I have to see two different teachers (for honourable and non dodgy non troublesome reasons) and have the Geog Quiz dry run and the Geog Quiz is on Wednesday and apparently the Social Issues reading package test is next week according to Nick and WE HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN OUR PACKAGE YET THANKS and I'm getting stressed just thinking about it so...

Die.

Back to Youtube I go, don't care man.

Okay so while I'm drowning in my Geog notes, and mourning the fact that I could've written a little faster for my Lit paper, A Minor Miracle Occurred after the Lit paper.

...MY H3 LIT PROPOSAL GOT ACCEPTED BY CAMBRIDGE!
(this is really a miracle. almost expected them to read it and scoff.)

And I suppose the hard work and shit starts now. The proposal was the easy part I guess. The important thing is that I really have to work hard and Not Procrastinate and my supervising tutor is now officially my new best friend. So my thanks to him of course, and all my friends who helped me: Brendan, Hwee, Junyi etc. Huggg.

Now back to Geog!

In the midst of my fked up terms, I took some time off to listen to a song I have not heard for approximately eight years or more - the Poké Rap. Yes, from the FIRST SEASON of the anime (before Johto and Hoenn and Sinnoh, there was Kanto and nothing else kthx. Old school for the win). Which I used to be crazy about, back when school wasn't as much of a worry or priority as it is now. How much less of a worry?

Well, if you have the time to memorise ALL THESE LYRICS, you either have a crazy memory...or are just crazy. (i.e I was crazy back then??? Or just too free haha) Actually even though I have a pretty good memory for song lyrics now, I personally was amazed at the sheer length of this rap and how I could actually do The Whole Thing when I was P3. Awesome shiz man. Now if I could only drag this kind of memory out from whatever rock its been hiding under, maybe I could actually use it to memorise my damned Geog notes -.-

I want to be the best
There ever was
To beat all the rest
Yeah, that's my cause

Electrode, Diglett, Nidoran, Mankey
Venusaur, Rattata, Fearow, Pidgey
Seaking, Jolteon, Dragonite, Gastly
Ponyta, Vaporeon, Poliwrath, Butterfree

(Catch 'em, catch 'em, gotta catch 'em all - Pokémon!)

I'll search across the land
Look far and wide
Release from my hand
The power that's inside

Venomoth, Poliwag, Nidorino, Golduck
Ivysaur, Grimer, Victreebel, Moltres
Nidoking, Farfetch'd, Abra, Jigglypuff
Kingler, Rhyhorn, Clefable, Wigglytuff

(Catch 'em, catch 'em, gotta catch 'em all -
Gotta catch 'em all - Pokémon!)

Zubat, Primeape, Meowth, Onix
Geodude, Rapidash, Magneton, Snorlax
Gengar, Tangela, Goldeen, Spearow
Weezing, Seel, Gyarados, Slowbro

(Gotta catch 'em all - gotta catch 'em all
Gotta catch 'em all - gotta catch 'em all)
(Gotta catch 'em all - Pokémon!)

Kabuto, Persian, Paras, Horsea
Raticate, Magnemite, Kadabra, Weepinbell
Ditto, Cloyster, Caterpie, Sandshrew
Bulbasaur, Charmander, Golem, Pikachu

At least one hundred and fifty
Or more to see
To be a Pokémon Master
Is my destiny

Alakazam, Doduo, Venonat, Machoke
Kangaskhan, Hypno, Electabuzz, Flareon
Blastoise, Poliwhirl, Oddish, Drowzee
Raichu, Nidoqueen, Bellsprout, Starmie

Metapod, Marowak, Kakuna, Clefairy
Dodrio, Seadra, Vileplume, Krabby
Likitung, Tauros, Weedle, Nidoran
Machop, Shellder, Porygon, Hitmonchan

(Gotta catch 'em all - gotta catch 'em all
Gotta catch 'em all - gotta catch 'em all)

Articuno, Jynx, Nidorina, Beedrill
Haunter, Squirtle, Chansey, (Pokémon!)
Parasect, Exeggcute, Muk, Dewgong
Pidgeotto, Lapras, Vulpix, Rhydon

At least one hundred and fifty
Or more to see
To be a Pokémon Master
Is my destiny

Charizard, Machamp, Pinsir, Koffing
Dugtrio, Golbat, Staryu, Magikarp
Ninetales, Ekans, Omastar
Scyther, Tentacool, Dragonair, Magmar

Sandslash, Hitmonlee, Psyduck, Arcanine
Eevee, Exeggutor, Kabutops, Zapdos
Dratini, Growlithe, Mr. Mime, Cubone
Graveler, Voltorb, Gloom, (We're almost home!)

(Gotta catch 'em all - gotta catch 'em all
Gotta catch 'em all - gotta catch 'em all)
(Gotta catch 'em all - Pokémon!)

Charmeleon, Wartortle
Mewtwo, Tentacruel, Aerodactyl
Omanyte, Slowpoke
Pidgeot, Arbok
That's all, folks!

14th March 2009.
The could haves, would haves and should haves.
I suppose I should stop thinking about it right.

[Holden's soliloquy from Chasing Amy, because I'm feeling down and sometimes you need emo stuff to snap out of it, as paradoxical as that sounds. I added paragraphing because it'll be a bitch to read otherwise.]

I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. And it's not because you're unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You're the epitome of every attribute and quality I've ever looked for in another person.

I know you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you'd ever consider. But I had to say it. I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.

I know this will probably queer our friendship -no pun intended- but I had to say it, because I've never felt this before, and I like who I am because of it. And if bringing it to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn't allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And I'll accept that. But I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something too. All I ask is that you not dismiss that -at least for ten seconds- and try to dwell in it.

Alyssa, there isn't another soul on this fucking planet who's ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it's there between you and me. you can't deny that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which -while I do appreciate it- I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.

It is late at night and I should not be up watching the Man Utd-Spurs match when I have school tomorrow, and I also should not be reading Rikku-Gippal fanfiction or else my eyes are going to drop outttt.

Maybe I should be reading Hamlet instead or something.
But here is the emo quote of the day, from the fanfic I'm currently reading.

Baralai once told me: “To have the complete love of a woman is something that should never taken for granted...because if you don’t act upon it, that love will fade. And when it does, there’s no getting it back; and you’ll be left alone in the dark, clinging to the memory of the love that she once had for you. But by then, it has become nothing more than just another memory. And that’s all that it ever will be...a memory. Nothing more.”

Sleep's not coming easy for a while.

Taken from the Book of Ezekiel while I was reading through the Bible today, from Verse 25:17.
I will execute great vengeance on them with wrathful punishments. Then they shall know that I am the LORD, when I lay my vengeance on them.

Me: o.O Why don't they quote things like that for chapel.