I find it so funny how I get different song moods. Like one day it'll be happy love songs, another day sad love songs, emo songs, in-your-face songs, chirpy upbeat songs, soothing songs... The list goes on, and of course some songs encompass more than just one area.

Currently in a happy love song + soothing song mood which = to songs like Corrinne May's Save Me, Gregorian's Once In A Lifetime, Selena's Dreaming Of You etc.

In particular, Once In A Lifetime always puts me into a zen mood, like everything's gonna be okay and nothing can touch me. Today's chapel was really good though, I can't pinpoint why exactly, but for the first time I sang along even when I didn't know the lyrics (usually I just sing only when I know the song). The teachers seemed to pick the right songs which were upbeat and catchy enough, and whose message really applied to us J2s.

Or at least that's really how I feel about it. It was like a connection thing going on, which erm, has never happened to me before in chapel. Queer, but somehow really awesome. Religion offers you something to lean on in your times of need, perhaps? Especially when everything seems to be crumbling and there seems to be nothing else you can lean on, cuz everyone else has their own problems too. I'm not the best, craziest, or most devout Christian out there. In fact, I quite think I'm actually leaning more towards freethinker. But I do believe in God, and I guess sometimes you gotta leave things up to the Higher Powers.

I've done all I can. The uni app thing will sort itself out, hopefully. Everybody, try listening to Gregorian's Once In A Lifetime! Awesome shiz, indeed. Lastly, I need to learn to be more independent and self sufficient cuz maybe that's the only way I'm gonna properly survive in life.

I also have to stop overthinking and worrying too much. Ahhh, JC Life Lessons indeed. Hopefully all this will not be for naught. Six weeks til A Levels, nearly died when I saw the timetable omg. Plan to finish entire syllabus in three weeks before Baccalaureate. Amazing especially since for J1 Terms/Promos I mugged A WEEK before they started. J2 Terms: Four days before they started. J2 Midyears: Also about a week. J2 Prelims: On-and-off mugging but real whacking started about ten days before the first paper.

Yes, this is why my grades are so effed up hahaha. I got six weeks now, with like three weeks study break I CAN TOTALLY DO THIS. Straight As ftw (: Okay now time to finish up these last few chapters of Geog before going on to Econs. I can, I can, I can.

'What counts in battle is what you do when the pain sets in.'
-John Short

This made you laugh. Its an amusing pic though, yes. If only math was like this in real life eh.

Ahhh I hate not finding the words to blog sometimes. Its like when things happen to me maybe I'd like to keep them in my heart and just keep the memories for myself alone. That's probably why I've been so vague lately (:

Short Summary
Friday was a wasted day. I tripped, twisted my ankle and suddenly felt dizzy before promptly passing out on the canteen floor in the morning. I think I gave quite a few people a scare, including myself hahaha. Spent the day spazzed out in the sick bay ):
Saturday was fine, went out for F1 with Stick (pics on FB!) which was boring ass and damn lame but being with her was so funny and we even met up with Sean sometime through the night.
I'M ALSO DAMN HAPPY THAT MAN UTD BEAT STOKE. Heh. (:
I really ought to properly start studying soon. So far I've just been going through notes and everything but with no real sense of urgency. This is the culmination of 12 years of education, I can't let it go to waste.

Random words
Icecream
Horlicks Ate The Elephant
Nothing Of This
King No Ouch Whee Icing Neat Go
Witch Hero Earl Rescue Eventually
Iceland
Stick To And Not Discover
Wow It Took Hours
Yuck Oh Uzbekistan

...Can you crack the code? (Haha I have no clue where the heck I got Uzbekistan from, I'm such a moron sometimes.)

Its been a while since I blogged, like since class outing? Wow. In the space of almost two weeks, I've been up, down, up and back down again. Gotta feeling its gonna get worse from here on out though.

To summarise:
- I went back to school and got a sexy timetable (up)
- Got prelim results back (down)
- Went out with Dee for an awesome evening, he was such lovely company; and it just made me believe for one night that I wasn't in S'pore and the A Levels didn't exist (up, way up)
- Handed up H3 (up)
- Had drama in school with Scary Tutor (down, way way down)
- F1 this Sat with Stick (potential up?)

And the slide continues. I wonder if I'm truly a failure at school and at being a student? Or maybe I'm just a failure at exams. I don't know, but I can't doubt myself, not now. Have to keep on keeping on cuz its all I can do. Back to Econs case study now.

The past we inherit
The present we create
But for those who hope, work and play
The best is yet to be.

I had a class outing today, and just reached home at 11:30pm, about two hours ago. Paul popped up on MSN and asked me for any comments I had about the day, and this is all I have to say. (Sometimes you have to borrow other people's words when your own feel insufficient.)

"If this isn't nice, I don't know what is."
"I don't know how I look, but I know how I feel: Young. Goofy. Infinite."

Cookies and all my love to whoever knows where the quotes come from. And that summarises my thoughts for today (:
(I don't know about you all, but when I'm with you I feel infinite.)

Watched Time Traveler's Wife yesterday with Nam, it was freaking sad and both Eric Bana and Rachel McAdams looked great (Rachel was amazingly pretty, wow) and in the end I was totally tearing up ): Gotta love tearjerkers. Then today after Geog, I went out to bum with Nush at Coro Starbucks. Okay fine, I was bumming and flipping through my Mass Movement notes (test in Term 3 Week 3!) and she was spamming Chem for prelims but well hahaha. Its really nice to spend time with her.

My life this holiday has been mostly relaxation based, so next week gotta gun the engine and whack the shit out of my notes. I'm kind of having a sneezing fit right now, its quite scary to sneeze like 12 times in a row hahaha gaaah. I wonder if the saying 'If you sneeze, someone's thinking of you' is true cuz dammit sneezing non-stop is kind of not very fun.

CLASS OUTING TOMORROW I CANNOT WAIT I LOVE MY CLASS <3

A best friend is like a good bra; hard to find, supportive, comfortable, always lifts you up, never lets you down or leaves you hanging, makes you look better, and always close to your heart.

For my best friend Junyi whom I love and adore, and of course for all my super duper uber good friends! :D Hahaha funny quotes ftw.

"My name is Maximus Decimus Meridius, commander of the armies of the north, general of the Felix legions, loyal servant to the true emperor, Marcus Aurelius, father to a murdered son, husband to a murdered wife. And I will have my vengeance, in this life or the next."

Omg epic quote pls. Cookies to whoever knows where its from (:

This is my hope for myself, and for everybody (:

'...and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night.'

-Romeo and Juliet, Act 3 Scene II

Look. You can't just waltz back into my life with a carefully timed MSN conversation, or an SMS, or just any sort of random technological contact whatsoever. Randomly messaging me at 1:39am asking how've I've been after effectively over a year of silence? How do you expect me to respond to that? I don't even know what to think. I'm not some random chick at your beck and call. I don't know whats going on in your head and frankly, maybe I'm better off not knowing.

You're not the first guy to do this, but I hope you're the last.

Blair: Why aren’t you in Europe?
Chuck: I was in Paris. But only to get your favorite macaroons from Pierre Herm.
Blair: And Germany?
Chuck: To pick up your favorite falke stockings. You know how I adore them.
Blair: What are you doing here then?
Chuck: You were right. I was a coward running away again. But everywhere I went…you caught up with me. So I had to come back.
Blair: I want to believe you… But I can’t. You’ve hurt me too many times.
Chuck: You can believe me this time.
Blair: That’s it?
Chuck: I love you too.
Blair: But can you say it twice? No I’m serious. Say it twice.
Chuck: I love you…I love you. There’s three. Four… I love you…

(This scene warmed my heart <3)

(While watching Elite Model Look 2008 on television)
Brother: F__kkk this one is daaamn ugly! Where the hell do they get these women from, Aliens 3?

My brother amuses me greatly (:

“There were some things I wanted to tell him. But I knew they would hurt him. So I buried them and let them hurt me.„

Suddenly this sums up almost my entire life. But well, there are things that need to be said.

Random quote I picked up from somewhere; Stick this one's for you (:

John: I don't believe in love.
Chris: So what are you looking for?
John: Love.
Chris: You just said you didn't believe in love.
John: Well I don't believe in unicorns either, but it would still be cool to have one...

coup de foudre
noun • /ku.də.ˈfu.drə/ •
1) a thunderbolt
2) a sudden overwhelming feeling of love for somebody; love at first sight.

Wishes
Sometimes I wish that you weren’t so difficult to decode. Sometimes I wish you spoke in sentences rather than ideas. I wish you chose your side of the fence and kept it. I wish I knew where you stood. I wish you were easier to disregard and I wish you weren’t so goddamn adorable. I wish you spoke your mind without shame. I wish you were like a book; so easy to read and so easy to close. I wish I wasn’t wishing for a single one of these things right now. I wish I didn’t have to.

I ought to stop seeking validation from people who obviously don't give a shit. I'm fabulous. Gotta believe it. Everyone else can just suck it, especially if/when I get out of here and never see you all ever again.

They say Singapore is a small place. Indeed, but there are many places one can go if one is trying to avoid people that one does not wish to see or fraternise with.

Prelims are over! (and have been for the past two days, teehee.) Now I wait for the rest of the people in all the other JCs to die of jealousy because while I'm slacking during the September holidays and leisurely flipping through a few notes (or not), everyone else is busy mugging their ass off. So, do allow me to gloat because while I was studying I recall some people slacking so, HAHAHA (:

The past two days have been absolutely lovely. I wasn't able to sleep on Sunday night due to getting too caffeinated on ice lemon tea (shaddup lah don't laugh) so I effectively lalala-ed my way through my last Lit paper without having any sleep whatsoever. Thankfully I did have a nap in the afternoon which was probably my only saving grace for not passing out halfway through the paper. That, along with the fact that I had also chugged green tea before the paper in the hopes that the caffeine rush would continue.

After that I was supposed to go home and sleep but I was feeling rather awake so I headed off with the Hwee to bum at BooksActually where afterwards, we promptly got lost in Tanjong Pagar. Hahaha >.< It was so terribly spontaneous though, gotta love fun times out with her (: Eventually we ended up at the Cathay where we chowed down on Astons (I WAS DAMN HUNGRY) and then we visited Gramophone where she got the latest Sara Gazarek CD and I rewarded myself with the DVD of the 1995 BBC production of Pride and Prejudice. (which I had once spent five hours watching and will spend five hours watching again, its a TV production what can i say!)

Later Paul and JY joined us so we had more fun times farming for Teachers' Day presents and we eventually spent a lot a lot a lot of money on said presents and by time I got home it was like 8pm and by time I crashed it was around 10pm and I had been awake for 28 straight hours (surviving a prelim paper and a shopping trip) so yea I'm amazing I amaze myself sometimes.

Yesterday was spent at home with the momma who had an MC due to her backache and so I sort of nua-ed around and cooked her spaghetti because I am a good domestic daughter hahaha then I went out to watch the Proposal (and Ryan Reynolds) with David and we had awesome ice cream and cheesecake afterwards so all in all it was lovely conversation and lovely company and of course Ryan Reynolds' cute face didn't hurt matters any (: Yeah more awesome times at night! (Then I came home and crashed some more wheeee.)

So yeah, exciting few days. I fully intend to just sit at home and bum til Friday where we have to go back to school for celebrations. Then Saturday = fun eating times, and when the Sept holidays start I'm out almost every day so I guess its a good time to just sit at home and take everything in now (:

Gotta love them holidays! And gotta love my dear friends. Though any AHers who happen to be reading this, RSVP to me ASAP with regards to the class outing next Friday! Thanks tons (: