this is because i can spell konfusion with a k and i can like it. okay not really, this post is really for hwee because she insists that i blog more about 'exciting things'. which is really terribly vague, but yes. anyway, the horror of A Levels is almost over. i always thought it would be so terribly different, like how the finals of a competition feels different than the first round/heats. its just the atmosphere and the looks on the faces of people. but somehow i was (pleasantly?) surprised to note that A Levels was really not that much different from prelims, or midyears, or terms. at least in terms of atmosphere.

i don't know if it should be worrying actually, because i just went in and did my thing. but i had to keep reminding myself that This Is It (sorry MJ, that's the only phrase that would've fit) and honestly there are no more second chances. went in there and winged most of my papers. i just hope it turns out fine, my fate is in the bell curve's hands now. okay enough of As, one more paper and i'm done forevermore with this damn education system.

had a lovely enough weekend i guess. slept in like mad on saturday, only woke up at 2:30pm. did some lit work, and then stoned out. sunday was nice too, with some more lit work and dinner with the family. shopped a bit for prom stuff, my outfit is almost complete and honestly its not the typical gown shiz that most people wear (and tend to look somewhat bad in) but its a little more casual and definitely rewearable. i never saw the need for buying one of those in-your-face evening gowns and only wearing it once cuz that is such a waste of money really. plus, looking at seniors' old prom pictures, the gown way really isn't the most flattering.

so here we are on monday, ust waiting, waiting for it to be over. seeing that its like 4:20pm now, this time tomorrow i'll be one third of the way through my last essay and just winging it like never before. tomorrow is going to be crazy, and i can't rely on the bell curve cuz Very Few People take my lit elective paper, not to mention its the first year of this new lit paper (they change the lit books every couple of years) so its time to set the standard, time to fight the great fight.

how nerve wracking huh. oh well at least it will be over soon! (: i leave you all with a few quotes which i hope you'll enjoy cuz honestly they made me laugh and maybe they will for you too.

me: i think that if i go overseas, the thing i will miss the most is Pig.
mom: pig?! not your mom?
me: i meant in terms of food. you're not food, are you?
mom: well i look delicious.

I think as a general rule of thumb, guys tend to stay up later than girls. Or rather, the guys on my MSN list stay up later than the girls. Maybe its a beauty sleep sort of thing or maybe they don't come online much or maybe they're out clubbing and doing goodness knows what but honestly I haven't met a girl that really stays up as late as I do >_>

Its always amusing to have my personal reverse alarm clocks (Nam and Isa) opening conversations with me at 3 or 4 am telling me to go to sleep. Nick, my late night study buddy, also stays up pretty late, like 2am plus on weeknights. Plus I just had an extended conversation with Hon Cheong via Twitter last night, all the way up to 5am or something. Not to mention crazy Pak who plays dota into the wee hours of the morning and is up way later than I am.

I just sort of wonder why this is so. Maybe guys are just crazy hahahaha. Thoughts?

"It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one. When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this... well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses."
-- Marion, 2 Days in Paris

(You know, soliloquys are awesome when bits of them mirror your life.)

Today, while riding on a bus,
I saw a girl with golden hair...
I wished that I could be as fair.
Then suddenly she rose to leave,
I saw her hobble down the aisle.
She had one leg and wore a crutch...
But as she passed, she wore a smile.

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine...
I have 2 legs, the world is mine.

I stopped to buy some candy.
The lad who sold it had such charm.
I talked with him, he seemed so glad.
If I were late, it'd do no harm.
And as I left, he said to me,
"I thank you, you've been so kind.
It's nice to talk with folks like you.
Who do not mind that I am blind."

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine...
I have 2 eyes, the world is mine.

Later while walking down the street,
I saw a child with eyes of blue.
He stood and watched the others play.
He did not know what he should do.
I stopped a moment, and then I said,
"Why don't you join the others, dear?"
He looked ahead without a word.
And then I knew... he couldn't hear.

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine...
I have 2 ears, the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I'd go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I would know.
Oh, God, forgive me when I whine...
I'm blessed indeed, the world is mine.

No, I didn't write this, but whoever did is amazing. It just serves as a reminder as to how blessed we truly are, even amidst all the supposed crap we are going through.