I AM UNEMPLOYED. YES YES YES YES YESSSS the excitement knows no bounds, but it hasn't really sunk in yet, for some reason. had the most amazing unemployment party on thursday night, and had a great friday night out at sean's house with the rest of the gang. it was brilliant to see everyone again, especially the army boys cuz most of them have changed quite a lot, physically that is.

actually this is quite a filler post, because the main reason why i'm blogging is to inform all and sundry that i will be away from tomorrow til 7th june! adios! (:

"Now, you listen to me. I’ve been alive a bit longer than you. And dead a lot longer than that. I’ve seen things you couldn’t imagine - done things I’d prefer you didn’t. I don’t exactly have a reputation for being a thinker. I follow my blood. Which doesn’t exactly rush in the direction of my brain. I've made a lot of mistakes. A lot of wrong bloody calls. A hundred plus years and there’s only one thing I’ve ever been sure of. You." — Spike ("Touched")

In remembrance of Buffy and Spike. Since Sarah Michelle Gellar's married, and James Marsters just got engaged. Never mind David Boreanaz (:

"Everything in my wanted to scream to him, to tell him to stop, that he was being ridiculous. I loved him and he loved me. If there were ever such a thing as soul mates, we were it. But, I didn't, because deep down in my heart, where I thought his heart had resided next to mine, I always knew this day would come.

Even more, I was never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew- knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest- was how love gave someone the power to break you."

Just got back a while ago from Sakae sushi buffet/Clarke Quay bum times next to the river with Debs and Shao. Amazingly happy, felt very very free. Cussed a bit, told raunchy stories, made off colour jokes, shared our hearts. & that's what friendship through the ages is all about.

Then I came back and read stuff which made me think, but hey I think I'll be good again tomorrow. Tomorrow's a good day, it's little Russell's 1st birthday celebration! Even though he doesn;t officially turn one til about 3 days later (: Pretty psyched, can't wait.

"In 2004 the University publicly revealed that it planned to open a 10,000-student campus in Singapore. Due to concerns about academic freedom, cost and freedom of speech for students, many students and academic staff opposed the scheme. Following exhaustive research the matter was discussed by the University's Senate, which requested further research to be undertaken, in effect forcing the University to abandon the scheme. Attempts to establish some firm links with Singapore (albeit not necessarily a full physical campus) are continuing."

Well, there's an Indian proverb that says if Muhammad won't go to the mountain, then the mountain has to go to Muhammad! Still wishing, hoping, praying. (This excerpt was taken from the Wikipedia article of a certain school.)

Anonymous (on the subject of university/scholarship apps): "You know every time you try you have to make an emotional and mental investment. You got to put in effort and hope, and then you just get back [a] rejection letter... [It] hurts lah."

Me: "...A bit like a relationship, no?"

alright, so it's been a while. it's not that nothing's been happening, it's just that i've been too tired and sian to write down every single little thing that has happened in my life. plus, maybe some things are better not known.

so here i am, on a slow monday morning, blogging about plebeian things. for one, my parents went to the bank over the weekend and they came back with this money bank in the shape of a cat. and not just any money bank either, but an "animate" one. it is battery operated, and it makes facial expressions whenever you put coins in. so if you don't "feed" it for a whole day, it looks super emo face, like it's starving to death. and when you finally put a coin or two in, it goes, "mm, yummy!" and makes this cute face with its tongue sticking out and all.

in other words, i have been feeding said cat 10 cent and 20 cent coins out of guilt. yes, i have been guilt tripped by an inanimate object.

so, mother trotted into my room on sunday afternoon, took one look at the cat, and asked why it looked so sad, as if it was a real cat. i replied that i had just fed it this morning and that the cat was probably being greedy. she pointed out that if it was a real cat, it needed to be fed three times a day and not just once.

i was like $#@! so i fed the cat another time at night, which confused my brother a bit, because i said, "oh i'm gonna go feed the cat now" and he asked, "we have a cat???" i then had to explain that the cat was a fake cat, after which he looked at me with this wtf expression. sigh. i discovered the cat on saturday night, after i came home from my outing with chrys and tongtong (who's flying off for pilot training in aussie soon yay him) and i have already lost about 50 cents to the thing. i foresee i am going to lose more money, because despite the fact that it's inanimate, i can't help but feel bad for it. especially since it sitting right next to my freaking bed.

i would like to mention that this money bank thing was probably meant for kids, and kids won't have the financial means to feed the thing three times a day. in fact, feeding it once a day is probably hard enough to do on their limited allowance. i remember i had 80 cents as a kid in lower primary, and saving was pretty hard. (although i still saved of course.) imagine kids starving so they can feed the "cat". i suspect the money bank is not just to teach kids how to save money, but also to drum into them the concept of responsibility towards animals. like, if you don't feed your pet, IT WILL DIE.

poor kids.

/end of plebeian post.

WAKE UP IN THE MORNING FEELING LIKE ASH KETCHUM
PUT ON MY CAP I’M OUT THE DOOR- I’M GONNA HIT PALLET TOWN
BEFORE I LEAVE, CHECK MY PC AND SAY BYE TO MY MOM
CAUSE WHEN I SEND OUT PIKACHU I’M GONNA WIN LIKE THE BOMB
I’M TALKING POKEDEX FROM OAK, OAK
BUT MISTY’S BIKE BROKE, BROKE
GET ITEMS FROM TOWN FOLK, FOLK
I’M HELPING OUT OFFICER JENNY
EXTENDING MY PARTY
GOTTA SAY FAREWELL TO BUTTERFREE

DON’T STOP, MAKE IT POP ‘TIL TEAM ROCKET SHOWS UP
TONIGHT, I’MMA FIGHT ‘TIL THEY BLAST OFF TO THE LIGHT
TICK TOCK, ON THE CLOCK BUT MY JOURNEY DON’T STOP NO WOAH-OH-OH WOAH-OH OH OH!

(yeah this is a Pokemon spoof of Tik Tok by Ke$ha, teehee!)

so i've been fanatically apathetic since 2005, which is actually a really long time. i guess sec 2 was a time of many changes and all. i've also been antifiend since i was sec 2, and yes 2005 was the last year i was GEP. fourteen also happens to be my favourite number.

why am i saying all this? sometimes i wonder why i blog anymore. i guess its an outlet for the things i feel sometimes, but most of the time i wonder why i bother. i mean, this stuff is bound to come back and bite me in the ass in the future in my new workplace or something. still, i wonder why i continue.

i think i need a reason to continue. or else, maybe it's time to put this blog to rest at long last.
what do you all think?

had a great long weekend, despite a slight fever on saturday but it wasn't anything major and i was up and hopping by late afternoon/early evening. spent friday whining with nush, who suffered a horrid accident and now has a cast on her leg. i signed it and claimed it as mine. in other words, i worte TIFF'S FOOT on it so well. looks like its my property now teehee (:

monday was awesome, had a labour day off in lieu so i spent it with wynne at my house, where we caught up and had fun with the ps2. i almost wish i was unemployed again hahaha. anyway, tuesday at work wasn't too hot, but i won't talk about it here. all the same, it hasn't necessarily been the best week for me. loaded down with marking, which is a side effect of exam season so i can't complain cuz everyone is going through it. gotta suck it up and just mark it man! but really, currently i'm just waiting and wishing and hoping and i don't know. it's just been a messed up week.

also, i passed my FTT today at ssdc! super exciting cuz i can finally book a driving test date. going to try and book this friday, i hear it might be a long wait though. like two months? which isn't very encouraging, but what to do. looks like everyone wants to expand singapore's carbon footprint. all the same, ssdc's really near chrys' house so i stopped by for a very short while to say hey to Bingo (her dog) and her (: we nom-ed some food from macs, gotta love cheeseburgers and milkshakes (:

listened to some Queen music tonight, hence the unique blog title (: just felt very oldschool all of a sudden. it's true, Freddie Mercury is the king, no one else will ever have such a great voice. i covered We Are The Champions, We Will Rock You, Bohemian Rhapsody and Somebody To Love tonight, giving me a lovely Queen high (:

damn happy that i can throw my FTT book away in some dusty corner now. time to get down to that Art and History book i have always been dying to read on my bookshelf, but have been putting off in favour of the damn FTT book. private candidates ftw pls.